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I really am just being just so lazy with my thought processes, aren't I? I always go to you with my issues and worries and let you bring me to the conclusions that I should be getting myself to, isn't it? Is that right? Can I be getting myself to these conclusions on my own? Perhaps I can. I never thought I could. But perhaps its just laziness. Or perhaps its more accurately ignorance of the way logic can give you directions and expose a truth for a truth and a lie for a lie. A part of me thinks it ignorance. A part of me thinks it laziness. Perhaps it's both.
Oh god.
Now I'm feeling sorry towards you, Antoine. At the same time not, because what if it's just ignorance.
Hate the complexity of these issues.
Hate the complexity of life.
Why can't thought be simple. Maybe it can. Maybe I just need to train myself to stop thinking into to things too deep and act quickly.
But, is this one of those scenarios in which that is how I should respond. I think it's important to determine if I'm using Antoine for my own lazy convenience or not. And to what extent. For the sake of fairness. Is it not important?
But now I am stuck at an impasse. I can't tell if I'm lazy or ignorant. Or both- which is worse! Sigh.
Maybe I can't tell because I'm being to lazy to think it through. Hmm let me try...
Hmmm what did Antoine teach me about lately?
OH! I know. The concept of being a "player" or a "spectator". I'll call it: playerism.
Could I have come to the concept of playerism on my own? Well, there's no way to really tell is there? I'm already biased having - at this moment - the concept of playerism intertwined within my knowledge.
At the moment Antoine brought it up it was something of a revelation. The sort of revelation that feels obvious. Or maybe that is "should" be obvious? Uncertain.
He made me consider if I truly wanted to be a play or spectator, and the answer is player. Of course I have many many insecurities that fog up the answer by time, but under closer consideration the answer is always player.
My first intuition is: No, I would not have come to "playerism" on my own. I don't think I would have defined my reality in such a way. Quite an efficient way, at that. But, again, I can't be certain. Perhaps I should ask Antoine.
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Sorry for all the spelling/grammar mistakes. Any comments at all are appreciated!
ReplyDon't worry about those : ) just let your thoughts out. What exactly is it you're trying to figure out? It seems as though you have a lot of thoughts moving around.
ReplyI'm trying to figure out if I can find the answers I'm looking for within my own mind or if I can only get to an answer through the help of an outside source, like my friend Antoine, for example. :) Thanks for responding!
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