My Timed Entry

I want to fall in love. I don't want anyone. I feel like I have two people stuck in my body. I am a feminist that doesn't need a man, oops now I want to cuddle someone. I act so rough and insensitive. Five minutes later you can find me crying. I look back at past friendships where I was hurt and tell the person off, and some days I feel like crap for that person leaving my life. I don't know. It's like two very different people and they are opposites. I can probably get an award for acting, because I don't even know who the real me is. I don't have a disorder, it's like I want to be this other person but I'm stuck like this. I have these big plans and then at the same time I know I won't achieve them. I don't think I like either side of me, at all.