Lost

I get sad at night

I wonder if im with the right person

I wonder if I deserve him

I wonder if I’m a good person or at least average

I wonder if I’m actually beautiful

I don’t feel beautiful

When’s the last time I felt beautiful?

does my life matter

Will I live up to my potential

Am I wasting my life

Am I buying into the bullshit

Am I buying into distractions

Am I actually dumber

Did I change for the worse

Does everyone secretly hate me

Does my life have any meaning

Will it ever have any meaning

What if I’m actually really sick

Will anyone love me unconditionally

Will I ever get married

Will I cheat on my husband

Will he cheat on me

Will I regret it if I do

Will I regret it if I don’t

Will I be alone when I’m old

Will I be poor

Am I being shortsighted

Have I been short sighted

Am I self sabotaging my future

How do I feel again

How do I become passionate

How do I become compassionate

How do I make a choice

How do I keep living

Each day feels like a step leading to no where

Even if I change my routine I feel like I’m going no where

Can I stop aging please

Why do I already feel insecure about 21 and 22 year olds at 26

How will I cope at 40

Should I get a boob job

Should I get a lip lift

Should I inject every inch of my face with juvederm

Should I get Botox

Can I inject fillers into my heart so it doesn’t feel empty anymore

My life feels empty and I’m scared

And I wonder if this is all there is

And if I’m screwing it all up