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So I need to let this out. I like my uncle and the last day before he left back to where he lives (he was visiting), he touched me. I went to him for love and protection cos my dad is metaphorically dead. He doesn't care about us and started a new life somewhere more than twenty years ago. I was craving for such love from a parent figure and not just that, my love life is kinda complicated so I just, yh, it just happened with my uncle. I know it's wrong and if any relative should find out about this I'm dead and he's dead too. We both did this and it felt right at that moment. I don't care what else happened next. Or didn't. I was playing hardcore with him. I acted all matured and oh we're just having fun although he told me it was a beautiful moment for him. I said I would forget about this in about a day and just played hardcore the whole time. But it's been months since he left and it's been really hard without him. The first weeks after he left I missed him so much. So very much. I was sending him so many messages that I was scared his wife might see them. His wife is my biological aunty and that woman is a tigeress already so imagine if she found out. That's not the problem. I seem to be craving so much attention from him and he's not giving any to me. Yes he does, by phoning almost every single day but I just want more. I need more. Sometimes I want to hear his voice whiles I sleep. I long for him but he's normal and is thinking I'm not even feeling this what because of what I said. And now I'm starting to regret what we did. If it hadn't had happened, things would be fine with me but now I'm on the other side of the world, craving for a married uncle with three grown kids and I'm only 19. And he is the first person to ever touch me. Yh. Caught up in my own feelings now. Any advice, insults, are welcome. I'm happy I let this out.
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You need to forget it ever happened and more on with you life. 19 is young and you have so many experiences to experience. Be young.
ReplyLet this go now! It's so wrong on so many levels. He should have never allowed it to happen. If you dont let this go it will destroy you completely! Run, run away from it. Go get you a boyfriend that's your age.
ReplyHe shouldnt have allowed it yes, and you just want him because it is very normal to want sexual activity and he was the only person who did that with you. But you can easily move on if you stop communicating with him and find someone NOT part of your extended family who isn't married and doesnt have kids.
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