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All of my teachers throughout my schooling have either not noticed my anxiety and depression or not cared. I am grateful to finally have a teacher (my AP English) to acknowledge and try to help me with what I’m going through. Every trimester, there’s a lunch meeting in his class for students who just transferred into our school to get to know each other. He’s invited me to go to it. I know that he is doing the best he can to get me to talk to more people, but the last time I “put myself out there” I had a “migraine” (AKA anxiety attack) and stayed at the nurse’s for the rest of the day. Even if he invited me for the 0.0001% chance that I could help an exchange student out, I can barely communicate with someone who speaks English. I feel ashamed that I’m not trying hard enough, but I’m scared that if I go it’ll take a turn for the worst. Even if I do manage to make an acquaintance, I skip lunch to do work in the library, making it impossible to actually hold up a friendship. I know I’m an idiot, and I think I’ll be too scared to go. I’m hoping I have a sudden burst of bravery that lasts long enough till I get to his room so I can’t make an excuse for not going. Not only that, but if I don’t go, I’ll disappoint him. I’m not sure what I should ignore: The possibility of having a mental breakdown and definitely making no friends or him. I’m just a whiney kid, and I don’t know how to just get my head to shut up for long enough to see what I should do.
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I totally relate to all of that. I wanna make friends and stuff too but I get scared. Then my brain calls me stupid or something.
I promise that you'll find somebody one day that will understand you for who you are without any judgement. I believe you ARE capable of holding conversations (good conversations) but the world just isn't ready for that type of intelligence.
I'm sorry that you have panic attacks. They are hard to deal with and there isn't really any way to make it better. I just usually sit in a corner or something when it happens because it's the only way to make it better. Just know that you are not alone, and you are definitely loved.
ReplyWould you like to be friends with me? I have anxiety and depression as well, and have found that speaking with people from other countries is much easier, and they're lovely people. You learn so many new things
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