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Love pain driving me insane
6 months ago · · marriage, · Explicit
How dare you!! How dare you compare you abusing a narcotic to me taking a antidepressant?!?!!?? You say you took it to make you less depressed? Well guess what it made you high as a kite, unreliable and broke our marriage. Do you remember being in Phoenix and almost crashing the car and speeding around with your pregnant wife? It makes me sick that you would try to justify your opioid addiction. You obviously think it is fine the way you acted and broke me completely while I was carrying our child and even once he was born. There is nothing wrong with me taking my antidepressants. I obviously had postpartum depression not that you care. But when I was pregnant you pretended to be so concerned if I would get it. You were asking the teachers at the baby class so much about it like you actually cared about my mental well being. To guilt me about taking something that doesn’t make me give up on life and helps me be positive to be a better mother and wife is beyond fucked up. Lately you have been extremely cruel to me and I do not deserve it. I am giving it my all trying for our marriage for Elijah for our family. You just keep tearing me down and making me feel worthless. I try so hard to support and love you but I feel like I am a disgrace to you. You drink and then your true thoughts come out. You belittle me and break me down. If you haven’t noticed I have been putting in a huge effort to support you and bring you up and love you truly despite all the hurt I feel. Please wake up and appreciate me and love me like I deserve you will get the same in return. All I want to do is love you, be your best friend. I love you so much you have no idea. You have put me through extreme hell but I know in my heart you have changed and our relationship can grow to more it has ever been. We have grown so much as unit lately and it makes me so happy. Our communication and love has flourished. I have fallen deeply in love with you again. I feel those butterflies. Lately though you get a drunk anger towards me and it hurts me deeply. I keep brushing it off and forgiving you but it keeps happening. I’m trying so hard I just want to be a happy family. Please just love me. I’m giving it my all but it’s obviously not enough.