What are you looking for?
Featured Topics
Select a topic to start reading.
I don't want to go outside, I just want to stay in my room a long time. I used to stay im my room and only come out at night. But that was when I was younger and my parents would have to drag me to go outside. But I'm older now, still not an adult yet... but close. I've changed over the years. I'm not that positive, funny, extroverted person anymore. I'm insecure, unconfident. I don't like my personality or anything about me. If I stayed inside all the time my parents would be worried, or have a "family meeting." I can't even stand to BE myself. I don't want other people to experince MYSELF. My parents are great parents. I have a good education. Nobody bullys me. There isn't a problem with anybody else. The problem is ME. I've told my mom I hated myself. And she blamed it on being a teen... So when I'm older I'll stop feeling like this? Does hating yourself dissapear once you get into collage. She doesn't seem to understand that I've felt like this for YEARS. I tried to be serious about her with this, but when I was about to tell her again. I realized I can't say the thoughts I think. I just hate her caring and when I say "hey I cut myself" she'll start looking out for me, being there, having stupid emotional converstaions. Bascially I want to be depressed ALONE. I want to be sad, worried,stressed, or anything else ALONE. I don't even go to my church anymore cause they'll notice how I've become. My parents don't know what I thimk or do when nobody is watching. And it's truly ugly.
If you see a comment that is unsupportive or unfriendly, please report it using the flag button.
More Posts
-
I don't know what to do...
Dear Novni, There's a boy in my class. I'll refer to him as 8 for privacy reasons. I didn't really like him until camp a month ago. We had to work together a...
-
How!?
Just want some advices on how not to be awkward when talking to people. I really am an introverted person and I want to change myself....
I don't think you want to be alone.. not really. I do think that you think you want to be alone and that somehow being alone will make you feel better. I think your parents might be thinking like me too. They care. There is nothing you can do about it. You can make them angry, you can ignore them, you can lock yourself in your room but nothing you do will make them care less. And even though you might not see it that way yet, it is a good thing.
It might sound bratty but it can be hard to deal with the good parts of life when you feel like you don't really deserve it. I think your parents want you to know what as you grow up you will realize that you do deserve the best life has to offer.
If you don't like yourself right now, do you really just want to stay that way and be depressed alone? or do you want to change? Because that is an option too you know..
ReplyWould you like to talk? We can be friends, or just random strangers talking. Yes, you want to be alone, but alienating yourself, as much as you want it, does not help you at all.
ReplyWhy do you keep finding reasons to hate yourself? You'll stop hating yourself only when you truly try not to. stop indulging in bullying yourself, you are the world's strictest critic when it comes to you. Learn how to love yourself, start with the smallest silly things. sometimes all you need to love is a little appreciation of the genius that invented ice cream.
Reply