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4 months ago · · Stress,
My spouse recently started going to see a mental health professional and I am very proud of her for making that decision. For realizing that she needed professional help and actually following through.
However, I am at a loss now. I have been experiencing feelings of guilt? Anxiety?
She doesn't speak about what they discussed and I know she doesn't have to. But I am struggling with keeping that distance? The last couple (9?) months have been hard for me. I have been struggling with my own dark thoughts and there are days that I am convinced it will be my last one. It is honestly amazing that I haven't done something irreversible yet... She does press me to talk about what I am going through, except I don't share the really dark stuff. Her appointments are raising more dark feelings. I feel like a failure. Like I am not the strong person she needs. And for some reason I can't find the courage to talk to her about it.
I don't know if this made any sense. I feel a little better for venting but obviously this isn't a cure all type thing.
If you have any stories or words, please share.
I hope I am not alone in this.