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it's 2:18 in the morning right now, but I've been so paranoid about this for a week or two now and I'm so close to just giving up on everything. This is going to be a bit long, but I thank whoever reads this all the way through- I just- I want someone to talk to, I guess. Anyways- let me start it with this. I've had this one friend for about a year now who has gone through literal hell with me and back- and we've both been in and out in this one friend group. At the beginning of this month, me and my three other friends were extremely close- hanging out everyday, talking to eachother, playing horrible games on roblox with eachother- fast forward a week, my friends aren't talking to eachother, one of them is on vacation, and I'm too scared to say anything because I don't want them to think I'm giving up on them or don't like them. I'm really upset even saying this because I feel like a part of me has already given up- subconsciously. I will continue, though. This has been a reaccuring pattern with every friend group I've had, and sometimes I just sit in the bathroom and cry because I'm so afraid of loss because I love my friends with all my heart. I can't keep a solid friend group for even a year without something happening, someone leaving, or hell, all of us just stop talking to eachother- and I can't do it anymore. I have so many friend groups I so desperately WISH I could have back to relive the glory days of our friend group- but I just can't. Last time I tried returning to an old friend group everyone in that friend group had started dating eachother and they were completely different people and I was just a huge third wheel for both couples. I am so afraid of people leaving me and I don't know how to cope so I just cry. And I've cried so many times over people who just don't want to hang out with me anymore. And I don't want to push them to hang out with me because I'm afraid they'll grow even farther. Nothing's working for me and I just want friends who I can really call my friends. I thought that this new group was the one. They make me feel the best I've ever felt in a long time- and I've dragged them all down to hell with me ( a lot of drama basically ) and through the entire time they have loved me and stuck by my side but I can't help but feel we're growing distant again. I always hear about people who have been friends for 20+ years and I wish- just wish I could have that. Maybe I'm just asking too much? I'm trying- but not hard enough. Summer is the absolute worst time of the year and I hate it- it was starting out good but I guess looks can really be deceiving. Anyways- thanks for reading a loser vent for a while. This really helped. to anyone who read through this- thank you, so so much.
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One of the tips I'll give you is to try and at least put the group together in discreet ways. Keep your group chats active, greet everyone good mornings, and just kindly ask them if they want to hang-out and those things. If it doesn't work and your friend group fails to have that connection again, it's better already to try and voice out your side of the story.
Remember, real friends will understand your point of view (just remember to also see their side of the story and not just bug them constantly), and those friends of yours that choose to ignore you just proves their not your real friend.
I hope you'll be able to keep you and your friends together! :>
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