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Last night i got high with my sister and her boyfriend. It was a wax paper thing that u apparently burn and then smoke. I took too hard of a hit an then i went crazy. Got paranoid and hallucinated, it was REALLY bad 😬
It felt like i wasn't myself, like i was someone else.. but then it got so bad to the point where I thought i was dead for a second. Like I left my body for a while. Then I started to think that maybe I was being raped? After a while, the dizziness became so strong that I assumed THAT'S what gave me the leaving-my-body effect. But at the same time, I tried to come back to my body and the fast heartbeats racing mixed with the spinning in my head kind of felt similar to a jerking motion between my legs. I could feel my whole body moving up and down on the bed, and I started to think my sister let her boyfriend rape me while she went along with it. I wasn't sure if she was into it too or not, I just remember feeling like we were all naked.
But then I kept coming back to reality because I saw my sister actually watch me go crazy while she was fully clothed in the same outfit i saw her wearing BEFORE we got high. I was fighting him off, kept fighting back, and I kept saying "stop stop stop. stop! STOP!! STOOOP!!! Oh my god I can't believe your doing this to me. I f*cking hate you" feeling bad that my fully-clothed sister in reality thought I was saying that I hated HER and asking me WHY I hate her. Stuck back and forth with the rape and the "reality"? I'm STILL really not sure now, like if that was all hallucination or not... cuz what scares me more is just that I blacked out like when you drink too much and you start to forget. When you only remember little bits and pieces.. But it was also like a lucid dream, which I've still technically never had but the best i could explain was that I forgot how that night went.
I don't know for sure if I cried or threw up or not, don't know if I was actually by my shower or if it was a dream, don't remember GOING to the bathroom but remember BEING in there, an then somehow i was laying back on my bed and they were gone (apparently cuz i scared them) but i left my bathroom door open and the light on. Part of me thinks maybe it WAS just all in my head cuz I still remembered to take my contacts out of my eyes, and I still turned off my ac at the same time as every night and I fell asleep the same time as every night. But just before that, like I said, it felt like my body couldn't move but yet my eyes were still open..........
I just don't know what to believe right now.. that one hit was so hard it had me so high that even after a good 9 hours of sleep (not in one sitting tho; 6 hour sleep with a 3 hour "nap" mid day), I still feel a little high. I feel really uneasy and just.. strange. I can't explain it any better than that /:
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Well, i hope you learned your lesson and dont do drugs again.
ReplyI appreciate your concern, i really do.. but weed has always calmed my anxieties. I think just that i shouldnt try new things or at least not something as strong and pure as that again /: I'll stick to my old fashioned stuff IF i feel that i need it. I know you probably still disagree with me but regardless, thank you for the help! <3 seriously (:
ReplyDon't worry, if you overdid it and took way too much the effects could well last for a day or two. You will feel normal again and you'll know when you do!
ReplyOk thanks, just glad that it's mostly over now.. day two and I'm still a bit confused with what was the reality and what was not, buuut I'm only a little nauseous now. I'm feeling much better and kinda more sane lol thanks again. Any ideas on what would maybe speed up the process to feeling better? Or should i just ride it out by now?
ReplyIk how you feel. I had a similar situation. It will eventually pass. It might have been an allergic reaction.
ReplyYa i think you're right, and maybe some other possibilities too, like i didn't eat much or even drink much water that day. Plus i haven't gotten high in a while.. that was kind of a big jump to be starting off again with something stronger /: oops 😅
ReplyThanks again guys, I'm just really really REALLY glad I'm okay for the most part now 👍
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