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My mom and my dad never loved each other. If they did, it never lasted. My grandfather left my grandmother for another woman. I see my father once or twice a year. My mom was so unhappy living with my father that I have such little memory of her smiling at me and hugging me when I was young. She was always angry and strict. She would hit me everytime I played outside or when I came home from school late. I was nine. Father would get mad at that, but most of the time father wasn't there. He was always out with his friends. Despite it all, I grew up pretty well. Maybe I should be thankful. I just graduated college and passed the board exam (even landed a spot on the top ten). I'm a registered pharmacist now. I've never had a serious relationship. I'm turning 22 next month. I do talk to guys, flirt with them and go on dates but it never gets serious.
I dated this one guy once, and he was amazing and I did like him a lot. We would talk all night on the phone and we were sort of a thing already. One day before going to bed, as we texted good night to each other, he added the words,
"I love you, __my name___". I did not respond. He repeated those words again the day after, still I ignored them. I started to become cold until one day I just left without a word. I don't even know why.
Everybody thinks I'm perfect. Smart, beautiful, and a good future ahead. No one sees the damage beneath this calm and composed exterior. Sometimes I feel suffocated. Everyday is a battle. Why can't I let anyone try and love me? Why do I push people away?
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