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im able to function, im a 3rd year in university doing research, i am able to wake up and get out of bed. i'm pretty sure that if i didn't have the support system i had, i might be way different-- i probably wouldn't be able to get out of bed or function. i am able to do these things because of my incredibly supportive mother who carries a lot of the weight in my life. and the rest of my loving amazing family. the friends i have are also supportive and amazing. the problem is in my mind. despite all these things, i hate myself with a burning passion. i feel i am the reason behind my mother's subtle suffering-- i've stopped her from doing a lot in life, even if it isn't my fault. my parents have done everything beyond reason to give their kids the life they've given us. they're too good. and for all they've done, they ended with a crap daughter like me. i'm unambitious, unmotivated, average at best at school, no hobbies, no talents, no skills, and all too terribly passive (passive, the one thing my entire family essence is NOT)-- i could let anyone and have let many step all over me and have a wishy washy control of my life, the way i speak, too, is so terribly socially anxious and nervous and weak. i really didn't give my family what they bargained for. they think the opposite, however, but that's probably just being blinded by love. if nobody is going to punish me for being a waste of space, it has to be me. im a bad daughter, a bad christian, a bad student, and not strong and domineering as i'd like to be. and i feel so hopeless for my future. i have social anxiety and can't do anything without feeling a massive wall in front of me. i have a research position and i have to do things this summer, a lot of things i need to be doing under a deadline, but i can't bring myself to do any of it because i just don't want to-- i don't have the energy or the will to. i don't know what to do anymore. i just want to be heard for once. i just want to be heard.
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