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It was 2012 roughly the summer, I had just join a dating website called "myyearbook" which converted and is now known as "meetme". I wasn't to crazed about the whole online dating scene being only 17/18. Randomly in August I had come across one particular profile. I wont use her real name so we will call her Lily. I was immediately drawn to her, her eyes, her smile over everything else. Even the way she talked when we started talking. There was something about her that made me forget any and everyone on that site and focus on her. My Birthday is in September, we had actually started planning on finally meeting. To be honest my whole thing about the online scene was being catfished or just being led on. So when Lily suggested we meet I didn't actually hesitate. Our first plans fell through because I ended up having to work. My birthday passed and Lily messaged me how she felt bad and wanted to see me regardless of time or day. It was end of the end of September beginning of October, and I had told Lily I had the weekend off and she canceled all plans and we finally met.
I had went and picked Lily up and she was even more beautiful in person than the pictures displayed. I was in complete awe because she was perfect. I instantly hugged her, her sweet smelling perfume had intoxicated me. We started driving back to my place, she reached over and grabbed my hand to hold and i held onto hers like id never let go. We had came to my house and she met my mom, and instantly she fell in love with her as pretty much I did. Before I knew it we were in my room just watching a movie waiting for our food we ordered to arrive and suddenly Lily looked at me and asked what am I feeling? I replied to her That I couldn't have been happier in any moment; She leaned towards me and ask what was I waiting for then? I went leaned in back for the kiss. She laughed and bit her lip and asked why I haven't I asked her yet? I was confused and asked her what she meant. She laughed and said why haven't I ask her to be my girlfriend?
Its teen Love. We had been talking for quite some time online and on the phone, I thought nothing of the time or moment. I looked her in those big beautiful brown eyes of hers... I said I was waiting for the right moment, but then I stopped myself and said so Lily, would you like to be my girlfriend? She smiled with that glowing smile and wrapped her arms around my neck and held onto me like I was about to die. This is where the happy story takes a twist... She was any normal girl who rushed to post about it on Facebook and tell her friends and make it all official and brag. Before we knew it her phone was blowing up, but not by anyone with good news. It was her aunt who had been trying to call her about her recent relationship status update. She was ignoring it ultimately, to little did we know the police would be knocking at my door. Her aunt had looked me up and found out where i lived and sent the police to my house to take her.
Crazy I know but in the long run, she lied to my about her age. In that moment I found out she was 16 about to turn 17; Not 18 liked she had claimed in the beginning.. So there I was standing in front of her, my mom, and 2 officers at 18 years old, technically with a minor. So many thoughts were rushing through my head, my heart sunk, and i felt destroyed. I wasn't arrested thankfully, but i was left wondering what was going to happen? Later on that night her mom had called me apologizing for her sister getting involved, and that her mom had no issues with me. But Lily was upset and thought I hated her for lying and was afraid I wouldn't want to talk to her, I explained it was stupid and the risks that I faced, Lily's mom handed her the phone while i was kinda rambling on and I her softly crying and I knew it was Lily.
Fast forward, So after a few days talking I decided to give her a chance, She was turning 17 in November so it wasn't as bad.
Its now The new year Lily and i had been together for a few months. We shared a moment that I would never forget. Shortly after Lily wasn't feeling well or herself... She took a test and turns out she had gotten pregnant. I honestly was a little concerned but I was open and asked her how she felt about it.. She said she was scared but didn't know. A day later she told me she had a Doctors appointment to have an abortion. I Lost myself. I told her it wasn't right, its not what i wanted for us.. But she basically said she was doing it with or without me.... We shortly went on a small 2 or 3 month break after that before we got back together..
Fast forward again, We have been together 3 years. We had our rocky moments and suspicions, that she was cheating but I couldn't prove it.... Things seemed to be going well with us, I had prepared to propose to her even.. She was basically living with me as is. But one dreadful morning While i she was asleep and i was getting ready for class, Her phone went off in front of me. The notification read "Babe, why did you ignore my calls last night? i thought we were going to talk?" I instantly unlocked her phone and went through all her messages between such person and her and discovered more than I ever wanted...
My heart was a hole now. I felt destroyed, I bit my lip and went to class to have a moment to clear my head before i confront her... Lily over the time had been quite manipulative so I took her home as per norm until I could figure out how to handle everything calmly. Didn't go over well, I ended up memorizing said persons phone number and texted him.. We communicated and he filled a lot of the gaps. I began to question a lot more, I ask her friends and it seems since basically since we first got together shes had 1 or 2 other boyfriends beyond me..
There's obviously a lot here i could write about Lily, but I wont go deep in on everything. I just now feel lost, I am 25 now and haven't been with anyone since her. Dating is hard as well as just finding someone. My heart aches but at the same time i just fell hopeless... I can't shake the thought, why? what did i do so wrong to not be able to keep her to myself? or anyone for that case... Whats wrong with me?
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Its not you its her. She was probably that way at and before you met her. I dont think theres anything wrong with you. She was the one hiding cheating behind your back and being manipulative. It was better you discovered it then before you proposed to her or couldve been alot worse. Im sorry that happened to you. Don't doubt yourself. Stay strong. im sure youll find someone else at the right time.
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