Alone and losing this battle

Too much has happened to even know where to start. I haven't written on here for a while now and it's often when I'm at my lowest point that the comfort of strangers becomes a lifeline.

I'm emotionally drained, I'm tired, I'm depressed, I'm constantly anxious and stressed and I feel like I am always treading on thin ice just waiting for it to break under me. I feel lost and alone because nobody is going through what I am going through and I honestly just wish I wasn't here anymore. My heart just aches from how hurt I have become and I'm starting to close it off completely.

I feel like the family court system is useless and am now powerless to do anything about arrangements with my child. How can an order be made when they do not even ask to see a single shred of evidence?? I am trying so hard to be a good mother in every aspect but now I just feel as though I am useless and my ex is getting everything he wants his way when he is so undeserving of it and has constantly lied and turned every situation around on me.

I JUST CANT DO IT ANYMORE. It's hard fighting a battle on my own all the time and feeling like there is nobody to help me, nobody that understands and nobody who actually cares. What is the point anymore.

Within the last 2 years I've had a close family member die, my family has fallen apart, I have had to move, my childhood home is gone, I've had my heart broken, I've been lied to and mistreated, I've lost friends, my mental health has suffered and the system has failed me over and over again in every way possible.

The only thing that keeps me going is my little ones smile. I could honestly cry right now with how close to rock bottom I am feeling and I really dont know what I ever did to deserve it. I cant take much more of this, I dont think anyone could.