No where to go

So much confusion. I feel as if the world is against me and God has abandoned me. I cant say what's in my mind. No support. No friends. I see people talk about relationships and friends. I never had that. I just stay in my mind and live out fantasies and situations. I feel alone. No one will come. No girl. Nobody. There are things that take a toll on me that do the opposite for other people. For them, they get positive energy with stuff like that. For me, it eats away at me. People will never understand. I want them to know. I might have to go to the mental ward again. I already went, but a second time might be much longer. Do girls know pain? Sorry, I cant share my thoughts. Never. Never. People wont understand and they wont want to help.