Sick, Tired, & Lonely ahah

Where can I talk? Where can I just talk with someone? Someone nice? Someone who doesn't judge me if my texting skills absolutely suck? I don't text with people I know. I can't do that. I don't know many people that well. I've tried. But I can't hold a conversation. I saw a post on here, asking for sites where you can talk with anonymous people. I tried them. I've been trying them. But they're just filled with people asking for sx. I found one person who wasn't. And I tried talking to them. Ah, you have no idea how difficult it was. They seemed nice. But the reason I want practice texting is because I get severe anxiety. I don't KNOW HOW to text. I can't. I don't do it. I know I'm not helping the conversation along, I try, but I know I'll say the wrong thing. Because I couldn't find anything appropriate on those sites, I searched for anon chats with teens. But it's pretty much filled with the same thing. Is there a nice community? A place with actually nice people? Where I don't have to worry about being shamed? Because this is already hard enough for me. I just want the practice. Maybe then the constant fear will go away. Of being judged. I just want somewhere I can trust the person is lovely. They're nice. They understand. They won't judge me. I found a place for "people with social anxiety." But there's an age limit. Can there be a place like that for a 14-year-old? Only because, maybe if I knew everyone else on there was as scared as I was, I wouldn't feel so anxious. Is respect too much to ask?

I'm lonely. I'm tired. I'm sick. No, I'm really sick. I'm full of aches. I'm cold, I have chills. Walking makes me dizzy. I have to sit down. I was walking down the stairs holding a cup of tea, getting dizzier, afraid I would fall or drop the glass. I'm sick. It's obvious. But I checked to see if I have a fever. I wasn't expecting there to be one, at times like this there never is. But I checked to see if I had a fever, I'm feeling awful, and MY TEMERATURE IS 94.2° F. The normal body temperature is supposed to be 98.6° F. So I don't have a fever, but is this OK? Recently it's been very low, even when I'm feeling sick like this. It's been down to 95.9° F. But never lower than that, at least when I check. Is this normal? Last time I was sick, and my temp was at 96° F, my mom said it's normal for your body temperature to be a couple degrees lower than normal, that some people's body temperature is a little lower. I believe her. I do get cold very easily, expecially recently. I think my body temperature is lowering, it didn't always used to be low. Only in the last couple of months. Maybe it's just as I'm growing. But is 94.2° F OK?

I'm so sick. I'm so lonely. Tomorrow is school. How will I feel then? I don't have a fever, will I still have to go to school? I can't like this. And I just want to vent, to talk, is respect too muh to ask?

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