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When I first saw her pic online, I fall in love with her. I love her so much that it feel like I can't live without her and I mean it. And its my fate that made you fall in with me too. Don't know if it was love or lust or something else.Whatever it is still I'm thankful to you.
But, yes you read it right "but" I have one of the the biggest fear of mankind ie, getting bald. Yes, I'm 23 with a patchy skull. When she saw my pic on the internet with hairs she was amazed and thought that she found a good looking guy. She is 35 and the most beautiful woman I've ever seen in my life. We've had hours long chats and phone calls.
I believe my word they made here fall for me, but deep inside I know what a good looking person want. Obviously a good looking partner that I know I was not.
One good day when she try to make a video call I didn't pick her call. I hate myself for doing that just because I'm a shitty looking young guy.
I don't know how and why this happened to me and the biggest problem is I can't expect it though. I use caps n hats to hide my biggest nightmare I know everybody have problems still they are living there life to fullest.
Let me tell you guys why.. what is my actual fear? Whenever i took off my cap in public i start thinking what will he or she is thinking "yaaaak!! he is bald". N these pre- assumptions that don't let me live freely.
When this baldness start happening to me. First thing I thought I will not marry to any lady (I'm straight though). Why! Because i believe nobody in this world deserve something that is not normal. Another question why I don't feel like normal? Every time I took off my cap that weird look on the faces made me feel so. May be because they really want me to hear n see the truth or it may be they don't like me at the first place.
Whatsoever, I disconnected myself from everywhere on the internet. Its been a long time my fear didn't let me post any selfie online.
I'm not that rich to get a hair transplant or any heptic medication. What do I do or I'm doing don't know will help me in future or not.
But I can't tell her my reality, i don't want to loose her.
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