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I recently got another job... my previous one was well... hectic, stressful, and frankly I was vastly underpaid. I never thought that I would be able to go somewhere new after almost 7 years of climbing the ranks at a non-profit. But with the bigger paychecks came complete and total chaos. I'd come home to disassociate until it was time to sleep. Then back to work I went to event management. It didn't help that I didn't have any friends outside of work either...My work was my fucking life. Sooner than later I started having bouts of mania..
My (new) fiance then suggested it was time for a change. I agreed. So luckily a family member had heard of an opening he was working at. It was a literal mom & pop across town doing accounting.
I went for it & got it! But I was rejected at first, then the lady who "won" ended up quitting after 3 days so the owner called me back in for an interview.
I'm not making the same exact amount of money doing literally 1/100th of the work. And it's nice that I don't have friends at this new job so much because I'm no longer spending $60 a week on "lunches" with my coworkers.
And although I'm totally grateful, it's been such a weird shift. From constantly working, stressing, telling others what to do... to just... not. I feel like I'm still overthinking and super anxious when I don't think I really need to be. Everything is just so calm and honestly, it kinda freaks me out. I'm not so sure what I want to do with my time anymore.... when I was only 10 years younger, I'd want to paint and do all sorts of things but now I'm just a stressball who wants to do something without an idea of what it is.
It's been three months now. And I'm hoping to come to a revelation soon.....
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