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Hi i am new to this platform and stumbled across this site.. where we can write without being found out or held responsible..
And the first thing that came to my mind is you. 'You' came to my mind after 9 years later...
Things are different now.. way different then we could imagine. We grew old together me and you, and had ventures and adventures that we aspired to and lived through. We spoke under the curtain of skies about where we would be in 2019.. almost 9 years ago.
We spoke about how we feel for each other and how unbreakable we are.. we spoke the trials and blessings we have experienced and we laughed and splashed cake in others faces on every birthday. We would come online ping, whatsapp on every 16'past of every hour as a way of say i love you.. when we were angry.
We took each other to different heights in our lives. Where every friday on our way to college, we waited 1-2 hours just so we can walk in each others company.. You was a absolutely movie!
We held hands and cried loud, and sang even LOUDER! - every midnight or so I ran out of my house to sneak to the front of your drive, to leave a cupcake for you to receive in the morning, or you would open the window of your bathroom to watch me outside for a second or so, which was absolutely priceless!!!!
We soon drifted, the promises, the oaths the future became soon very dim, our families started to have an issue with you and me being together. You and me would go months on end without seeing each other.. just emailed once or twice to let each other know that we loved one another.. this distanced us slowly.. and slowly but we held tight and reunited in university..
You was my best friend.. and more so the girl i loved so hard...
Your married now... and i still pray he takes care of you, your health, your happiness and i pray he never hurts you. I am so glad and happy you have atleast found and achieved that '1' dream of yours, and that is to be married and have a family of your own one day...
I stumbled across my old emails yesterday, and checked my sent items.. and here you was all the way at the bottom.. endless messages and unforgettable times... and here i am writing to you 9 years...later.
I ask about you sometimes, but speak about you hardly.. its like a masquerade ball, where we all act like gods and goddesses and dance away to an undying trance.
But truth be told.. i still think about you.. and now i think about you more than ever after seeing our old photos and love letters that we would send to each other, or even more so the gay!!! haha!!! memos we emailed over to each other when we held on to one anothers phone as we would depart to go to our lessons..
Sometimes.. i think about where we went wrong.. but then i think does it matter ? back then if you changed or i changed due to influence of people who could not stand to see us be happy.. does it matter.
You're married now.. infact to a friend of mine who i no longer can be friends with, cause his a low life prick (no offence) but i can be a man about it and set aside my feelings for something you decided to go along with way after our breakup.
But you do dance away in my mind.. you cover the fact that you have completely moved on, as you still wear our promise ring on the right hand of your wedding finger.. you still have my belongings that still reside in your house.. after all these years.
It just was playing on my mind..
The last few conversations we had.. was as though god was prepping us to buckle up and take note. As weirdly we mentioned - what would we do and be like if we was to break up ?
You said ' i could never be friends with you or have you in my socials.. because i will always have wether 1% or 100% of love for you and will always love you because of who you are... and how you soldiered through for me. And for that reason it would kill you to move on or try moving on whilst i am in your life..
But i still think of you.. i still miss you.. and i wish i could speak to you one more time.. over a hot cuppa.. i know how it would turn.. a smile and we would speak and get on like a house on fire.. and if i could.. i would pick the same destination we got caught meeting.. where i promised you one day.. we will be brought back here.. at the prince's palace..
I miss you..
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