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Happy thanksgiving everyone.
My perspective on life has been changing this past year, thinking on a near death expierence, how different things would be if my roomate had not noticed i was overdosed lying on my back with vomit around my mouth. Had i not made a gurgle noise as he was walking out of the bedroom he would have thought i was sleeping on my back, and i would be gone, forever forever. How different would things be? Life would go on yes, but i am here now. I create a new reality each and every day that i am alive. I want to just let all of this destruction from my past go, and continue living life as if i had just tripped and kept on my merry way.
Damage has been done, damage that cannot be undone, and accepting that is hard. I want to be the care free triumphant kid that i once was, that kid is gone. Every bit and trace of who i once was and wish i could bring back has got to go. Digging and looking back on the past does no good, even if it helps just a little, which i doubt it would. Looking forward is the only viable way to live. And its a goddamn challenge from hell to do the majority of the time. Moving forward is difficult and sometimes the strangest goddamn feeling ever, but a nesessary one. Finding balance and finding some equilibrium from nearly 2 decades of drug abuse is hard. Maintaining and keeping going no matter what, no matter how you feel is key. Someday ill find peace inside myself, god willing. One day at a time just for today progress not perfection.
J
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