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it started 4 years ago.. i was 18 back then. to be hoenst, i don't know how it started but in one month i lost more than 10kg , at first i thought it was something wrong with my body or that i was sick , so i went to doctors and made all the necessary tests.. i was all fine and i didn't actually notice that i wasn't eating anymore until i got back to school from summer break... mom would notice that i don't eat breakfast anymore , that i rarely eat lunch and that i always leave my dinner plate full of food. i was only focused on my studies.. i wanted to do good , great, and so i did. i ended up being the first student in my town in senior national exams.. i was mentally extremely happy but physically ruined.. the summer after it, my health started getting worse and worse and so mom took me to the doctor , that's when she told me i am anorexic, of course she gave me a lot of medication, daily routines for a healthy diet and everything... but still, i never finished a bottle of pills and i didnt eat like adviced at all.
now i am 22 years old, my weight is 43kg, whenever i reach 45kg or more, i get nervous, furious and i would immediately just do sport or anything that can take away those 2kg that i gained..
2 days ago, too low blood pressure and blood sugar, i almost fainted but i was pale, shaking and too sweaty.. again , i refused to go to the hospital after a lot of begging from my friends and family , but i didn't. i have an exam to prepare to, i have like 3 school projects and tons of reports to write.. i like my body shape, i like that i wear XS and size 32 (france) in jeans.. i do like it , but sometimes when i look at myself in the mirror , all i see is bones and i don't like it , it looks ugly, i neither have hips nor breasts. i also hate the fact that sometimes i can't help but be weak (like the other day when i fainted) and i hate that... sometimes, i try to eat.. i really do.. but i just cant, my stomach doesnt want to accept food anymore and when it does (rarely) i end up vomiting it out couple hours later...
the only thing i know for sure is that i dont want to eat.
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listen. It's okay to ask for help... Really. Don't be ashamed to ask. What you're doing isn't healthy. I'm sure you've been told that many, many times and are completely aware. The thing is, you have to be not only good to yourself, but honest too. It's crucial that you do these things. With eating, since it's been so long, your body has adapted. If you're willing to change, you slowly have to lean your way into it, eating bit by bit. Try eating three meals a day. This can be small, whatever you can hold down, but there has to, and I repeat, there *has* to be consistency. This won't be easy... I would advise you to get some help, honey. Really... I care. I truly do. You need to start caring for yourself too. Hell, you owe it to yourself. Please don't think I'm being rash, I just care. I've seen this happen to multiple people and it hurts my heart to hear someone else going through it... The first step is *realizing* you have a problem. You can't like it, in fact, you shouldn't like it. This feeling... Tell someone. Please. Tell someone that cares for you; I'm sure they're willing to listen:) You've said that they have tried, so maybe it's time to listen.
I wish you luck, sweetie! Really... This is going to be a journey. A long one, in fact. Remember, it's taking that first step:)<3
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