2 am or 2 not am ramble

Why am I awake at this hour? I had no problem sleeping last night. Anxiety of the next day subconsciously perhaps? Hate anxiety. Its like using a roulette wheel maybe youll be ok maybe youll think about everything conceivable including Einsteins relativity equation lol may be youll sleep maybe you wont. Black or red odd or even better odds than 00. But anyway. Then seeing someone go through what i did in a past trauma i had to help with expertise on that situation. I mean i hate what messed with me with a passion and to see someone else get messed with by them well im not gonna back down to help. Hmm. I wont back down.... hey baby....there aint no easy way out...Im not that sleep deprived right rattling off random thoughts. I mean i slept well the night before. Oh yeah novni is your friend remember that for next year. No i wont back down. That songs in my head lol. Yeah 2020 is a new decade. 21 more days i believe. Yes a day in my head ...things i wish i could forget yet theyre gone but were reality like ptsd i dont know why that stuff happened. Idk where this is going. But obviously i need sleep. Say hello if youre up this time of night. If not thats fine too idc haha. But anyway no a forklift is not parked by my head why would i vision that subconscious again? Dads awake too coughing i hear. Maybe the universe is like a wrapping paper or aluminum foil spread out. Blackholes dont or shouldn't exist yet do. Hmm.

Coughing again. Thats....ick. Pressure in my head wont go away headaches been driving me crazy. Gotta stop sometime to attempt to sleep again. Ok nighters.