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She has been a drunk for my entire life. She’s raised me under a Hell house for years, and I’ve wanted to kill myself since fourth grade. Tonight she got drunk and started screaming at me that I was a piece of shit and I was goin to flunk out of school (which I’m not), and how she never wanted me. That was it. After 19 years of putting up with her shit and her not wanting me, I hit her as hard as I could in the nose and then again in the mouth. She started crying and I bruised her pretty bad, as well as breaking her dentures. I was able to fix them, but she told me to get out and she never wanted to see me again for as long as she lived. I had tonight to pack up.
At this point, I’m finally ready to kill myself. The worst part about it is getting over the initial fear. I have nowhere to go, and nothing to do. I was in film school and I wanted to be a producer and director since I was little.
I guess you really shouldn’t follow your dreams.
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maybe you shouldn’t have punched her twice. one time was self defense, the second was messed up. i understand being angry, but there are other ways to deal with it. now she can press charges and you can’t defend yourself. she had a right for kicking you out. you shouldn’t have punched her again
ReplyI totally get where youre coming from . My dad has been this way the majority of my life. Your mom had every bit of that coming. You can only hurt someone so long before they snap. My dad said i was a lowlife pos and told me to go end my life before besides initiating physical fights over calling him a single name he cant stand which he deserved for starting the fight anyway becuz he was miserable. Dont end your life ok you can bounce back from this. Your mom could press charges but you can still make something of yourself its only a minor thing. Just dont harm yourself you can move forward.
ReplyI'm praying for you. Hang on. Help is coming
ReplyYou were right, and in the weirdest way possible. I had this dream last night that made me open my eyes to the situation. I just need to get away from them. Thank you, and for the others that commented, thank you too. I apologized to my mom and it made me feel better, and she wasn't hurt. I found about 20 empty bottles of vodka in her room, which she consumed over the course of three days. She should be dead right now, but I'm not helping her. She has to fix herself, and I'm leaving. I almost did it the next day, but I didn't because of that dream. Someone gave me a message that I need to follow. Thank you all again.
ReplyThat's good of you to apologise, but you know what? She should have apologised to YOU. She's the one who chose to open her legs. She's the one who chose to drink. She's the one who chose to start the fight. SHE is in the wrong. SHE pushed you. SHE caused you to snap. And SHE should be the one to apologise.
ReplyHere's what you do. Don't think about what happened, that's not critical right now. Get yourself to a safe place. If you have a friend's couch you can crash on, go for it. If not, google the closest homeless shelter. Worst case, you can always go to the emergency room and tell them you have thoughts of suicide. They'll lock you up for 3-5 days, but at least you'll have a bed to sleep on (I've been there). The world needs more filmmakers, fewer drunk moms. Keep yourself alive.
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