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Just my thoughts (You don't have to read these if you don't want to)
4 years ago · 3 · Rant, +8 · Explicit
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I am 21. And female. And these days, I have been thinking about these things.
1. Guys are jerks
You know, guys are jerks. I am not saying all of them are. But oh, sure, some of them are jerks. They cheat. They don't keep their promises. They don't care about the girls or the girls' feelings. Whatever, they are just jerks. All they care about is look. Pretty face, big butt, big boobs, small waist, sweet smile, nice smell.
Whatever they are JERKS. (I mean, just most of them, of course, I know there are good guys out there)
2. Universities and their payment
So I have already applied to one of the universities which is not in my country. I will have to study abroad for two years for my masters degree. And I have already paid the accommodation fees. And oh my god, they sent me like warning emails for like twice saying I didn't pay it. So I have sent three emails with the photo of payment receipt attached to the email. And it still shows that I have to debts to pay in my account. God, I hate the administration team.
3. What I wanted to be.
I don't know why I choose Business major when I wanted to do script writing. I am not a good writer and English is not my first language. But I do want to become a writer. I am just into arts. I write stories and post them on Wattpad and sometimes fan fictions so I post them on Asianfanfic and I draw, mostly pencil drawings, I used to compose songs, write quotes, poems somethings, in my Burmese language or sometimes in English. I found peace when I write or draw. I have to concentrate only on the characters and the plot that I have created you know. Just me and the characters inside my head. And the same with drawing, oh god, you have no idea how much I love to draw. My grandma drew, my mom draws and I do too. It's in my blood. lol. But here I am, studied International Business and worked in logistic and supply chain industry and now going to study Applied Economics. I have no idea why I choose it.
4. this website
Seriously, I love this website. You know, I have always wanted to create something like this. It doesn't have to be a website. It can be like a cafe and there will be a post at the front and people can write what they are feeling just to you know, open up if there is no one to hear them out. I want to be their listener. And someone build this website and thank god. Whenever I click "offer support", I saw different posts about different things. And it's good. Honestly, I love reading what other people feels. And I don't know them but I try to relate. You know, oh god, I should be a counselor.
5. A guy that I am talking to
I met him in tinder. And he asked me my Instagram on the first day that we matched. I gave him my Instagram and he actually didn't talk to me then. A few weeks later, I posted the picture of octopus fried lol. And he replied to my instastory saying that he love octopus too. And then we started talking again. We chatted in Instagram for like a week and then we started talking on the phone until today. He is okay, hardworking, but short. I really really wish he is like three inches taller than me. I am 5'5" and he is like 5'6" Damn, too bad. We met today. He is sweet. He treated me hotpot lol. He would be this kind of guy that I will be friends with for a long time. I don't really want to date him but I want to get to know him and be friends with him.
6. A girl I liked/ no/ A girl I loved.
She is my Best Friend. And I am not bisexual. I do support LGBT but I am not one. But I fell in love with my Best Friend. I love her too much. I met her when I was ten. And I was so so so so madly in love with her when I was sixteen but I didn't know that it was this kind of love until we were seventeen and she came to my house for sleepover. I watched her hair falling down on her shoulder and neck line when we were talking lying on bed. And her eyes shines so bright. That moment I realise why guys like her and at the same time, I didn't want anyone to see how beautiful she is because I want to see her beauty for myself only. yeah, that sucks. and this one sighted love had to end one day right? After highschool, I moved to my neighbourhood country for Bachelor degree for two years and I somehow could survive whenever I heard about her and her boyfriend although I had trouble breathing and my heart breaking. Now, I think I am okay. It took me four years to move on. I started to move on as soon as I know I was in love with her. She is straight. And she doesn't like this kind of love. So I tried since I was seventeen, then eighteen, then nineteen and twenty. And now, I am 21. Somehow, I think I am fine. I think I move on. Yeah, I think so. I am not sure yet because I still catch myself staring at her and think she is so beautiful even last a few weeks ago when we met. So, yes. I think I move on. I don't know if I completely move on but I think I do. In fact, I am talking to some guy I met on tinder so yeah. I should move on.
Yep, that's it. these are the things that are inside my head right now. And oh, the university subjects. I have to take four subjects for first semester, so I enrolled it but I have no reply yet. It's been like a month already. God what is wrong with the university that I applied? It is one of those famous University in that country but whyyyyyy?
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Who knows? the administration can't seem to get things right. Just make sure you don't pay extra.
ReplyIt's okay and don't worry.
I'd like to read your stories if I can.
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Replyhahahaha.. i'm sorry.... i just couldnt stop hearing your voice while readin your mind through these words... your funny... hehehe.. sorry.. well, have a goodnight sleep..
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