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I feel like I’ve hit a wall with my course choice. I chose computer science because I thought it would be interesting to study and because I really thought it would be cool to study how to make softwares and programs and stuff like that. This is my first year studying this course but I already feel like everything is so hard and I feel so dumb and stupid all the time. There are people in my class who are so smart and understand the concepts well and even my friends understand and know how to solve and I feel like I’m the only dumb one who can’t really do anything... I’ve really tried so hard to understand the concepts, to ask for help, to look at extra material, to solve extra questions etc but it still feels so hard.. I’m starting to think that this course might really not be the right choice... when I first chose it, I didnt really think it would be this difficult but the reality was much harsher than I thought. I’ve really thought a lot about changing my course but I’m too scared of telling my parents (because after all, this course was my choice) and I’ve already paid my fees and paid for my full three year visa(which cost a lot of money) so I don’t know if changing courses or dropping out is even an option for me. I also often thought that this is just my first semester and I’m actually only struggling this much because of one subject (which my lecturer tries his best to make sure is hell ) so maybe things would get better next sem or next year but even my seniors say that it only gets tougher from here on so I don’t really know if I’ll be able to do this for the next two years... There’s also nothing really that I’m passionate about that I’d like to do or anything else that I’m interested in studying so it really, really feels like I’m going nowhere with my life... I feel so scared and so anxious all the time and I’m so, so worried about failing and disappointing my parents that I’ve cried so much I don’t think I have anymore tears left to cry... Especially after today when I’ve had the toughest exam of my life in which I don’t think I’ll score above a 10 (out of 50) at all.. I just feel really stuck right now and I feel so lost... I really feel like I hit a wall and I can’t even see myself doing anything in the future... I feel so useless and hopeless and I just don’t know what to do... Sorry if I sound so dramatic over this but it’s really something that’s worrying and stressing me out a lot. If anyone has any advice that they can give me or can offer me another point of view, I would really appreciate it.
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Hey,
Initially when I started my course in Computer Engineering, I felt somewhat similar. I wasn’t sure until my third year if the decision I made was correct (my degree was four years long). I had finished two programming courses and I still didn’t like what I was doing. Things changed when I had a really good professor for one of the courses and that course was designed in a way where you get to actually practice software development skills. I enjoyed that course and decided I would become a software developer.
Personally, I feel what really prevents us from liking a course is having to “study” it. Yes, concepts need to be understood so you can apply them. Thinking about how a course is going to be useful for the bigger picture will help. Focus on what you want to achieve - you want to build softwares and programs. See how a certain course can help you with that.
I am currently doing my Masters and what helps me is taking a look at the learning outcomes for each course. This helps me realize what concepts need to be focused on. When I don’t understand the material I try to Google as much as I can because sometimes there are better resources out there than the extra material the professors provide. It might also benefit to seek the help of your professors. If they have office hours, visit them during office hours and ask them to help you understand a topic. If you have tutorials ask the tutors to help you out.
Usually first year in Universities following American system offer general courses (Math, social science electives, etc). I preferred major-focused courses over general courses. I am not sure if this is also the case with you, but if it is, then it might be worth considering this is only the case in the first year. The coming semesters might turn out to be better.
Finally, if you feel like this isn’t the right course for you and you would rather study another course because you like it better, then it might be worth making the switch.
Hope this helps! =)
ReplyHi. The question you should ask is if you are truly enjoying what you are doing. Are you doing it because you find it interesting or because you want to excel in it and gain a job in the field?
Just because something is interesting, does not mean it is going to be the right field for you to pursue in.
ReplyI too work in the computer world, just spent time bouncing around the room mad as hell because I couldn't get a simple piece of programming done.
The truth is I love the computer business but when it goes bad it goes bad.
So I decided (I work for myself) to distract myself by coming here to read.
Bottom line? It's the most complicated and frustrating thing to innovate in any industry...
Good from bad? I wrote this one because I was frustrated and needed a break...
...later I'll get back to the job at hand and finish it with a fresh, more calm perspective.
It's not a matter of if, it's when.
So computer stuff is hard and can be a trainwreck, there are many other things I could (and probably should) be doing.
But, I personally work in computer tech. because I love it.
If you don't, then seek out what you love and acquire the skills to do it, no matter what it may be...
...there is no other way to be truly happy in life
A little distraction can reveal great things....
Look, here's one now :-)
https://youtu.be/FX5jFhUyabM
And remember all you editors out there, it's a distraction, it's not supposed to be related to the topic at hand.
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