I'm way too nice......

I have come to the conclusion that I am way too nice to people who don't deserve it.. I can't help it because that's just who I am when it comes down to it. I can't help but wish I wasn't so nice. I'm tired of being used. I'm tired of everyone jumping down my throat when I don't do what they want. Here I am 22 years old and can't even stand up for myself.

I came to this conclusion because I was just complaining how my 20 year old sister needs me to take her to run some errands. One being to take her drivers test because she's been lazy and just hasn't gotten around to doing it.. She would much rather stay at our oldest sisters house or her friends house smoking pot everyday and doing absolutely nothing.. she doesn't even have a job.. She is supposed to be staying the night with me so we can get up early to go do the stuff she needs to do, but she's making me wait to come get her from wherever she is at because a grown woman is scared to be at her own apartment by herself since her kids are gone.. I don't sleep at night hardly for reasons unknown. I can just lay there and not sleep, so I had planned to take some medicine to help me sleep because I'm going to need it, especially since I have to get up so early.. I was talking to my grandma about it and was telling her I wish my sister would get her priorities straight because I'm tired of helping her when she doesn't appreciate what I'm doing for her.. I stay with my grandma because I am her primary caretaker.. She told me,, just think of where you would be if I hadn't helped you and given you a place to live.... EXCUE ME!!!! I would be just fine living in my own place.. I almost jumped back and said where would you be if I hadn't stepped up to take care of you??? Because her own kids are too involved in their work life to take time to come and take care of her.. But I didn't say anything back. I just kept my mouth closed like I always do..

Sorry, but I just needed to rant for a minute..