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Narcissistic abuse, games, flying monkeys and toxic surroundings.
4 years ago · 3 · Narcissistic Abuse, +16 · Explicit
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I'm done dealing with some cowardly - sadistic- covert-narcissistic-asshole and their flying monkey puppets, who are interfering in my life and bothering me out in public. I'm fed up of having to go out in public, minding my own fucking business and deal with random strangers acting fucked up around me, out of nowhere. Everytime I go somewhere, I'm not doing anything wrong to trigger any sort of negative reaction from others. I know that I'm not even doing anything to have such unwanted attention from anybody because I'm not doing anything to bother anybody. I go about my day and keep to myself, getting whatever I need at the store etc...
I have encountered enormous amount of people, always different groups acting really unnaturally fake and behaving bizzarely around me. This is what I noticed compared to everyone else that would be around and it seems like they don't bother these other people, except me.
Due to the fact that I have been experiencing this for a significant amount of time now, this has made me fucking suspicious, distrustful and paranoid of others.
I can't even take nice gestures from someone anymore, without thinking theres hidden motive behind it.
That their smile is fake, that their attempts to speak to me has some kind of personal gain and people are trying to play some sort of fucked up game with me. This is what it has led up to and I never experienced any sort of issues before, until I begin to notice it more. I have completely isolated myself and pushed others away, because I would doubt it.
I have been struggling within myself with the constant doubt, often thinking that I'm actually going fucking crazy here, when I know that I'm not. Who can I trust anymore and who's reliable, I feel like people are against me for some fucking reason, but I don't even know them. I don't give a shit with what random people do with their own lives, as long it's not hurting anyone, thwb there's no problem. I've spoken to friends and family about it, but sadly nobody seems to be taking me seriously. When I clearly mentioned that I don't feel safe and comfortable anymore, I get told there's nothing to worry about etc...
When I have said that I felt stalked, followed, watched and brought it to others attention that random people in public are acting off with me, nobody blinked a fucking eye. I can understand that others can't help without enough proof and solid evidence. Since I just suddenly changed, wouldn't people who know me question what happen and look further into it? Instead, I get told that I'm overthinking, doing this for attention, that I need to relax and focus on other things. People assume, in order to be stalked, it has to be the same individual that follows you around and so on.
What if my device was hacked because I had issues with it before, to obtain info and use it against me. What if person/ people were impersonating me online, to cause trouble in my life and have people attack me to cause harm?
What if this person/ group is doing a smear campaign, spreading false rumors and lies about me, for personal gain or financial gain.
What if this is being done in attempts to sabotage and ruin my life? I know what Intimidation, direct and indirect harassment, passive intimidation, manipulation, invasion of privacy, defamation, dehumaniztion, because this is what I believe I'm experiencing. Whomever is pulling the strings and trying to do harm towards me, is truly fucking sick. They're beyond an evil-two faced-unempathetic vile piece of shit of a human being ever.
Anybody who actually fucking encourages, participates in mental and psychological abuse against another human being, is fucking trash too. These people are either innocent but forced, or the most fucking ignorant individuals I've ever encountered. Regardless, there is no fucking excuse ever to hurt anyone on purpose for some personal gain.
People become part of the problem when they enjoy inflicting harm towards others and support the abuser. Abuse of any kind, whether it's financial, psychological, emotional, physical is absolutely wrong. Narcissistic abuse is without a doubt what I'm dealing with, because those who experience it, is exactly what I have been faced with for a very long time.
I'm done with people trying to control and manipulate me.
I'm done with people trying to meddle with my affairs, ruin and sabotage my life.
I'm done with people abusing, using and taking advantage of me for their own selfish and personal gain.
I'm done with so many people lying in my face,concealing the truth from me and being fake.
I don't know what to think anymore but it's enough, the fact that none of these encounters and experiences are proven to be positive. The intentions from others haven't shown me otherwise by far and I feel like everyone is covering shit up to save their own fucking asses.
Isn't it enough that there's already something wrong with what's going on, without your full acknowledgement. That sense of boundaries being crossed by unwanted people, these complete strangers meddling, invading your privacy and trying to obtain personal information about you without your consent. People use anything against you and bother your life. Isn't it enough that I don't want any involvement with other people anymore because of this whole shit show, what people have done towards me and what these people put me through.
I use to go out with no problems, no issues at all and then there's a sudden switch, out of nowhere.
You start to wonder why you feel like you're being targeted by others, why people stare and laugh at you. Why people be friends with you the next and afterwards ignore you. When you pass by, random people make comments, whispers and you start to wonder what they're saying about you. Tired of it all and I don't deserve any of this. You eventually feel stuck wondering what has really triggered all of this and why. Was it an vindictive ex boyfriend? Some guy in the past that couldn't take rejection very well? A fake friend? Some random stranger? Someone who was close to my family once upon a time? A shitty family member?
Who's the perpetrator behind these fucked up and twisted tactics?
This just goes on because you can't figure out, where the source is coming from and be able to do something about it.
It's been going on for far too long that I want to find out what the hell is going on and why people are cover some assholes ass? Why are people staring at me oddly, why are people acting like they think they know me and just doing things to gain some type of attention. I'm really sick and tired of trying to figure out what the fuck is going on with other people, why I'm bring treated different compared to everyone else, why people feel the need to fucking bother me and cross boundaries.
It bothers me so much that nobody would stick up for me, nobody has the damn decency to come forward and be honest about what's going on behind my back. I'm tired of who these fucking people are trying to pull some psychological bullshit and whatever else malicious motives they have in mind against me.
These flying fucking puppets have made my life much more difficult and traumatized me enough. I don't know who the fuck in their right minds thinks whatever they're trying to pull on me is okay, but I can see through it all and how toxic it truly really is. All of these people need to stay the fuck away from me, my life and get the fuck out of my face.
Not falling for any of the fucking bullshit, schemes, torment, harassment and stalking.
I know what has and is being done towards me, that others try to cover up and hide. I'm not crazy, I'm not delusional and those who tried to convince me otherwise, because they don't want to face jail time, or deal with the fucking consequences of their heinous actions don't have power over me.
People have broken me enough, tried to push me into committing suicide, done enough damage to my overall life and well-being. Every single person involved, is fucking sick in their fucking heads to play with someone's life and dehumanize them.
It's unforgivable.
It's unacceptable.
It's will never be okay.
I'm not sorry for what I have to say here and never will be.
I know my truth.
I'm fucking done with toxic people, making me toxic and causing me problems. I don't owe anyone fucking anything and people don't deserve anything from me anymore.
I'm not allowing anyone near my unborn child, my little family and never letting anyone into my life or trusting anyone ever again.
Fucking finished.
_-Jas
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