Let me try

Why do i feel anxious everyday? This is how my life is for last 25 years. My mind keeps worrying about one single thing everyday. It all started with my engineering days. First I wanted to do well so kept pushing myself studying hard, then it was job and then marriage days and now its greencard and Greed. Because of this attitude I have aimed for something and end up getting it. But it doesn't make me happy. It just makes be stressed out. My brain is always computing what will go wrong. I cannot feel on what has gone well. And worst is every time I look around i feed more stressed out because there is always someone who is ahead of me. I cant make myself feel good.

I thought too much and now i feel I should write. Even though my grammar is not great but I think this will help me organize thoughts. May be help to change my perspective. I want to feel great. This feeling cannot be triggered from outside but only from inside. It can only be self generated. The brain is programmed. It is your conscious who will program it. TBD