singularity

I love solitude so much and I don't know why. Is that a bad thing? Is it like an illness? I don't know. I'm going into an art studio tomorrow to finish a project, I'm waking up at 7AM not because I want more time to finish it, but because it'll be quiet. I'll be alone. It will be silent. I am so excited to move out. Starting somewhere new where I don't have any friends excites me. I like it when I start a new class and I find out there isn't anyone that I know in that class. I don't know, I've never met anyone quite like this so I'm not sure if this is a normal feeling to have. The weird thing is that I actually have a lot of friends, and I'm probably the most friendly guy you'll ever meet.

Maybe It's because I'm tired of everyone, I don't know. Too many people to deal with on a daily basis, maybe I just burned myself out. I never plan on getting married, or having kids, or being in a relationship in general. Never going to have sex or kiss anyone, that's the perfect life. Just me and a dog living in a small, one story house. That's all I want. I've felt like this for a long time, probably since I was about 13, 7 years ago.

Also I'm tired of all of the lies and utter annoyance from other people. People start fights or say mean things for no reason, I don't understand it. People hurt my feelings sometimes. I'm just ready to leave this place.