Reflecting on the little things

We have a strange little history. One which lands me jumping to conclusions all too soon. My mind starts to question everything and give up even before I do, especially when I'm not okay, and I have to fight against it.

Last night I wasn't okay. But neither was he, and with the world disappointing him he didn't want to accidentally take it out on me. So I was left to my own, I don't blame him, to fight all my thoughts. The problem is every time I am and he's not around I jump to conclusions which I have to convince myself aren't true. And I know they aren't because it always seems like the things we can imagine are never going to occur as such.

He has my trust, so when I worry about the worst I remind myself of the reality of things. Today he reminded me why I do that. We couldn't do what we had planned properly but he took the opportunity to introduce me to yet another song. He likes showing me the world from his perspective. This one was different though because he said he had found another song to add to our "wedding list", and the lyrics of which are his way of reaffirming his promise to never abandon me. Those little things remind me how incredible he is over and over again.

I love him so much. He swears he'll marry me one day, and I'm fine with those claims because I could honestly see that happening. So I'm happy to let him continue secretly planning our wedding in his mind when in reality he shouldn't even be thinking about it at all. Especially since it shows how much he cares, and not only do I think I could never find anyone as amazing I never want to have to let him go.