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Have you heard news about mothers selling their children before?
I don’t mean adopt. I literally mean “sell” because my mother did that to me.
I was only 8 when I knew I was adopted and I was 9 when I knew the real story of my past.
I exactly don’t where to start my story but okay…
Summer of the year 2000, (I don’t wanna mention my birthdate) I was born in a public hospital and was escaped by my mother because they don’t have money to pay the hospital. And 12 days after, I was sold by my biological mother to a couple who can’t conceive a child.
The way my mom(foster mom) described me was just horrible. She was hesitant to accept me at first because I looked like trash. My arms , and mouth was sore because my real mom doesnt wash me well or has diligently took care of me. I looked very sickly plus she only feed me water with sugar.
But my mom now has decided to buy me for $60 (on today’s value) I was very small and they took me to the hospital right away. I was diagnosed of asthma and lot’s of allergy.
My biological mother threatened my mom that she will be getting me back when I reach the age of 7 but it never happened.
Nothing special happened to me except that I lived normally. My foster parents enrolled me to private schools and just simply gave me the best.
Even if it was a normal life, It was also a family that is messed up. My foster parents had a temporary separation because my dad did something: violence against women (VAW).
It was a year of separation and my dad has schizophrenia and we saw him at the streets one time , he seem restless. So my mom decided to accept him again in our lives.
Things went out fine, sometimes they still fight but no more harm.
Going back…
Sometimes, I think about myself on who I look like… or things about my biological dad. Does he even know I exist? Because my foster parents didn’t tell me anything about him because they told me, my mom got pregnant in Manila and she came back in our island to give birth.
Was I … unwanted?
What was the reason why she sold me?
Sometimes those questions just keep repeating in my mind. Maybe time will answer my questions.
It was until this year, 2020…
When I decided to ask my mom again about my past…
She told me to ask a few people she know that can lead me to know who my real mother is.
I had one, good source. A woman in her late 30s.
She was a neighbor of my biological mother and she told me some information about her but I wasn’t able to get the name of my biological mom and also, I am the eldest daughter.
I wasn’t also able to know who my dad is but she gave me the facebook account of my biological aunt. So, I looked it up in case I might get something but so far… none.
I don’t wanna message any of my real relatives knowing what they did to me. I guess that’s my pride but I don’t want them to know me yet. I am not ready.
Although, I am currently formulating something in order to discover more about myself in the past and the people I want to know.
I do deserve and explanation but nevertheless, I don’t think I regret anything that has happened to me. I just want a peace of mind.
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People sometimes assume more responsibility than they can handle, as unfortunate as that sounds even in parental roles. There are those who either never learned how to be a functional family unit, or simply wished to follow biological desires and hormonal drives. Your mom and dad you are with now seem to care about you greatly, and that is a rare second chance not many get. Great things await your life, keep becoming who you wish to be, and more love will be there to help you. You are not a mistake. Thank you for all you do and for being here, we love you.
ReplyYou are wondering who your biological parents are, and why you were sold. These are very important things to know. One day you might find out. For now don't worry about the past and just live for today and be grateful for the life you have and the parents who have reared you.
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