Hurt

I know im in a bad relationship sometimes. It works for me most of the time. But then everything breaks down. I break down and cry. He tries not to get mad. Then it turns into nights with me crying at 1:30am with him wanting nothing to do with me. All I want to do is cry because no one wants me around or alive. I hurt everyone because I don't want to be hurt. But in return the boy who has my heart shatters it. He's not all bad, hes my best friend. He has issues, like we all do. He gets angry and sad, I try to help but i make things worse sometimes. Tonight it escalated a lot, he wanted to leave but I begged him not to, so i guess everything that has happened is because of me. I love him and Im not letting him go. I don't have anyone else anymore. So yeah... thats all... Im sorry for my bad decisions. Goodbye.........