My Unsent Letter

Hi there, i was trying to focus and study for the past hour but i couldn't. i need to get this out of my mind.

I Don't know how to really start, thinking about this used to make me real sad but now am not even upset even tho some tears escape every now and then. i Am not sad, upset or even mad because i came to conclusion that everything is temporarily

The first time we talked was me trying to sheer u up, we didn't really know each other but knowing that someone needed help, i couldn't turn them down and the conversation was all casual and a bit Professional.

We never really got close until you texted me that verse as flirting and what i really liked the most is that u actually had the courage to do it because I usually intimidante the guys around me.

I liked you, i really did and i was never afraid to tell you so but i was terrified to fall for u.

The fact that is am a fragil person, i am instabe, i am bipolar and i am insecure. Am am nothing i pretend to be from the outside and by now i thought you got an idea about that.

Am sorry for everytime i pushed you away and for everytime i came so close and pulled away in the last second.

Am sorry i couldn't give you all of me.

Am sorry it took me so long to build up my trust.

Am sorry if am the reason where we got today, i really miss us, i really do, you are the only person that made reconsider my pov toward relationships.

The way we grew apart kills me but i can't do anything about it . there is literally hundreds of things i want to tell you, millions of things i want to confess and billions of i miss you to say but my pride won't allow me to adress you any time soon,

I can understand when am no longer welcomed in someone's life so i rathered to write this letter u will never get.

I Love you, Bye..