My Timed Entry

I found this outlet when i was looking for something to vent on. Most people would tell you, "tell me everything. I will always be here for you" but then you dont really feel like its real. Like its just empty words.. do you also have that feeling? A feeling where you want to tell them everything, but it doesn't feel like they REALLY want to listen to you so you hold yourself back.

There were times when i tried baring myself to people. But just before i can tell them the real 'pie', just when i'm about to finish the introduction to the real reason i want to talk to them, they start telling me theirs.

And what do i do when people tell me their thoughts? I listen. I get discouraged telling mine because i was cut off. Or they would start telling me a similar scenario they've experienced and how they handled it. Worst, they tell me what i should do. They give me advises. I just want someone to listen to me. To REALLY listen. It makes it hard for me to express myself when people act like this. It's frustrating and makes me second guess myself. Makes me question if i should really trust people with my thoughts because they tell me they are always there for me but it doesn't feel like they are.

It's discouraging when you try to share your thoughts and when you are about to actually get to the story--about what you felt, what you experienced-- they invalidate you. They tell you "you shouldnt have thought like that" or "you could've just done this or that".. if i was eating food, i'd have lost my appetite.

Seriously, of people can listen, JUST listen--not to say something in return, not to share their thoughts, not to compare, not to give a solution-- and just listen, this world would be a better place.