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I do not know if this is love or anything remotely close to that. All I know is that when you are upset, it breaks my heart. I want to say, it has to do with the fact that we are related, albeit distant. Or it's just my personality. O that you are a great person and it pains me to see the extent to which life has been so unkind to you. You don't deserve it. You never did. I don't know what to say ,really. I don't know why I said I have feelings for you because now I am very much conflicted in my mind and in my heart. I saw you on video call the other day and it completely threw me off. Seeing how much older you are and what this could potentially lead to, jolted me back to reality. You have seen more of life than I have. You know and understand more than I could even imagine. I still can't fathom why you are so obsessed with me, like in a matter of a few days. I know you said your feelings are old, which I get because I have had a crush on you too but that's all it was for me. Just a crush. I wasn't in love. I don't think I still am. But when you confessed your feelings for me, I felt like I had to say it back or I would lose the only person who at the time was offering me love and care I had longed for such a long time. How do I tell you, my feelings for you aren't as strong as yours are for me. I could probably stick around and see if that changes but I have done it before and I regret making that decision to this day. I fell in love for sure, but it disrupted my whole life. The more I told myself I was falling in love, the faster I was able to convince myself my feelings were real. And then it happened, I was hooked on him. Along the way, I lost and gave so much, I was starved. And then you came into my life, a moist fresh breeze that blew away the fog in my head. You showed me a side to life that I had forgotten even existed. You gave me so much love in the two days we spoke on the phone. You pulled me out of my own despair, gave me hope in the darkness that I could see light. I wonder what God made you from. I wonder why someone as perfect as you has suffered so much. I pray to the Lord that you prosper and be in good health. You are so wonderful, I wish I could just hold you and tell you that you are precious. But the truth still remains, my love for you isn't as deep... Not yet.
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ReplyWell... thanks for saying I look old and that it scares you. Makes me feel great.
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