I should have left when...

I should have walked away when he told me he didn't want to ever get married or have kids. Instead I asked for his number.

I should have left when he said he doesn't see himself being a parent. I started pulling away but he grabbed me and said maybe he would change his mind someday.

I should have left when I saw him posting negative things about kids and marriage on Facebook.

I should have left when he would talk about how he found his teachers sexy.

I should have left when I first felt like slapping him in the face when I look at his face.

I should have left when I felt uncomfortable looking into his eyes because I knew he was hiding something from me.

I should have left when I got pregnant and he would make mean jokes about babies and kids.

I should have left when he said I would be a good single mother.

I should have left when I was pregnant and he suggested we go down the stairs. "Maybe we will get lucky." he said.

I should have left when he would tell me for months that he will propose to me but never did until I told him how depressed I was that he kept saying it and not doing it. I was about to leave him but then he asked when I want to get married. We got married 10 months later.

I should have left when he refused to pick out my ring and I had to pick it out myself. I asked him If I am annoying sometimes since what I was about to ask him to do for me was going to annoy him, he said yes. I should have left when I had to ask him to give me the experience of a traditional proposal. He got the ring and got down on one knee and asked if I would annoy him for the rest of his life.

I should have left after that.

I should have left when we would practice for our wedding dance and he would give me to look of pure hate in his eyes.

I should have left when he didn't help with the wedding planning at all.

I should have left when I saw him hiding who he was texting on his phone.

I should have left when he would talk about how much he loves his dog more than me and our kid.

I should have left when after a year and a half of living together he finally confessed that he thought I got pregnant on purpose. He didn't say anything earlier because he thought that "this is just my life now." He was only doing what he thought he had to do. Of course I didn't get pregnant on purpose. Things got better after I convinced him of that. But then other shit would happen...

I should have left when every time he looked at my ring all he saw was the money he spent on it and not the symbol it was supposed to represent.

I should have left when I felt a dreaded feeling about changing my last name for him.

I should have left when we went to the marriage licence office and he "joked" to the clerk "I guess we have to get married." Hearing that made me feel like shit.

I should have left when I wouldn't feel comfortable when he wanted to hang out with his single female friends.

I should have left when he snuck out to go to a party when I fell asleep sick and babysitting a friend's kid. He didn't tell me or try to wake me up. He left a toddler on her own under no conscious supervision.

I should have left when he came back and seemed to have no remorse for doing what he just did. I asked him if he was rethinking our marriage. He said no.

I should have told him that I was.

I should have left when he started treating me differently in a bad way when a certain someone came back into our lives after being gone for a while.

Now he is dating her...

I should have left when he made her DM and she almost killed me in the game D&D.

I should have left when he once again left me asleep with our awake child alone in our home.

I should have left so many times.

In the end he left me because he supposedly didn't feel like anything he did was enough for me.

Well he is right.

A liar is not enough for me.

Someone who hides the truth is not enough for me

Someone who disrespects me is not enough for me

Someone who doesn't care about me id not enough for me

Someone who doesn't put in the effort it takes to make sure our child is taken care of in the proper way

Someone who puts his dog before anyone or anything else is not enough for me.

Someone who doesn't stand up for himself and demands what he really wants right away is not enough for me.

Someone who doesn't stand up for the people he says he cares about is not enough for me.

Someone who doesn't give me the chance to be the one to confide in is not enough for me.

Someone who is unfaithful is not the one for me.

Someone who goes behind my back to plan a break up and divorce without even telling me anything was wrong is not enough for me.

Someone who doesn't tell me important things I need to know right away is not enough for me.

Who is enough for me?

For now, I am enough for me.