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Hey.
So, I wrote this post for a very specific person. I also asked that person to come here and read it and help me out.
If that person has found it, congratulations! Also, I badly need advice.
So other people too, please read this. It will be long, yes, but I have tried to make it worth reading even though it is filled with confusion.
Okay.
Here is the thing.
I am conflicted about many things -
1. Medicine vs. Diplomacy
This is the biggest one.
Let me narrate the whole story.
My brother loves talking about science and the universe. He's awesome. He's a genius.
He will do great things. I want him to do great things. I want him to excel in his field, be the best, but I also want to excel in mine. That is where I get stuck. What is my field? Where lies my excellence? I think that our true talent is what we would do for free, what we loved to do as kids. I loved reading, and organizing games and speaking and standing up for the bullied and forming policies and being president of small clubs. I loved the MUN in my school. I want to be the one in charge of bigger things. I want to be the one who's decision matters. A lot of stuff is wrong with my country (India) because we don't have good leaders. I want to change that. Hitler was a terrible person, but he was a great leader. because HE CARED ABOUT HIS COUNTRY! HE WANTED THEM TO PROGRESS. Pretty much the opposite here. All our politicians care about is filling their pockets. Anyways, don't get sidetracked. So, I think I will make a good leader because I have good ideas, I'm an awesome planner, I love History and Political Science and Economics, and English of course, I love reading about wars and alliances and tactics and strategies and all. Especially when I'm the one making them. But here is where the problem lies here - the future becomes unsure. It also pays less. We have a good way of getting into administration here, the UPSC. But any job you get from it pays very very little compared to what a surgeon of the same age would earn. Now we're getting to the point. I love Biology, at least enough to want to read Camp bell cover by cover. It's the bible of Biology. If I pick medicine, I want to be a cardio-thoracic surgeon, because it is the best and most awesome and thrilling branch there is. But again, the same issue. Whatever I do, I want to be the best at it, and I'm not sure if I will be able to beat everyone out there who is brilliant at science. I am not sure I will be able to contribute as much as I want to. I'm not sure if I have a scientific brain. If I pick medicine , I will have to accept that I won't have as much of a role in how my country is run.
I know that plenty of diplomats are doctors. Having good knowledge of medicine will enable me to make sure our healthcare system is improved.
But my life is mine at the end of the day. I can't live only for the world.
I want to college in the US. Because they're awesome! Not that I don't love India. I do. My teachers are the most experienced in the world. But India lacks expertise. India lacks infrastructure. I want to work with the best and brightest there are. Becoming a diplomat through the UPSC prevents me from going to the US to study, because you don't have to study for it in college. You just have to give the exam and get through a short training.
I am so torn between these two fields. I want to believe I can chose what I was meant for. Alexander Graham Bell had said that life isn't about discovering yourself but creating yourself. But my birth chart or whatever they call it in English (I am a Hindu, we have these charts describing what a person's life will be like) says that I am meant to be a diplomat. I don;t believe in astrology all that much, but I do want to know at least a little bit about my future. I don't want to be an unhappy doctor or a struggling officer for the rest of my life. I picked Biology because I feel it comes easy to me, I can absorb and do well in it.
Whew, that was quite a rant.
But still. I am confused.
I like both sides - Science and Humanities. I just want to be great at whatever I do.
In the Bhagvad Gita ( basically the Bible of the Hindus) it says that gaining knowledge for being the best or being better than everyone else is worthless. Gain knowledge for what it is worth, because it is the most precious gift in the world. But there is more to gaining knowledge than that. I love studying, because I love learning and understanding the world and my reality, but that is not all I want to get out of education. I want many things.
As a student, I want to learn and participate, and make notes with good stationery(I know this sounds silly).
I want to be able to be a good student.
As a well earning adult, I want to have a good mini library of my own.
But I also want to give back to society.
I want to accept being ordinary.
Please give my advice and what you think I should do.
I do love Biology as well, and I truly want to take it, this humanities thing is pestering me.
I need all the focus I can get for either of the two.
So I have to be at peace and completely clear.
Also, give me some advice on how to learn to enjoy the present.
Thank You for reading (especially the person I asked specially)
Please,please please help me a bit by giving your opinion in the comments.
Thank You.
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So, I am a medical aspirant from India too, and to say the least about our government, it's... Complicated.
So before I chose to do medicine I did have a lot of confusion, so it makes sense that you are confused. I'm interested in a lot too.
But I wanted to address a few things that I know properly ( I apologize if any of this offends you or comes across as biased)
So, to be very frank, all of my 10th grade, and beginning of 11th grade I wanted to study medicine in the US. Which I was talked out of, just by the facts of reality of the plight of the medical system in the US. I might not know your financial standing, but personally I have always been someone who doesn't like to spend much, so profit gained in my opinion by studying in The Us isn't great, to start, it's 2-3 years longer since you have to do pre Med. And then Med (MBBS) but MBBS in India is not only cheaper but shorter.
Plus if you do get into a government college in India the exposure you have is brilliant in MBBS, so my sister also did MBBS in India(government college) and then is now doing MD in a deemed college, so she was talking about how in mbbs she had a patient load where how they would pay for it was never a worry, so tests and treatment was done properly, but in private hospitals, sadly payment is a concern (BTW she says it's good to atleast do MD in private cause your future is going to have patients where treatment isn't always affordable so you know how it'll be).
Overall as a daughter of two doctors, I may be biased (but I've always had the option to pick what I wanted, I love bio a lot and hence I chose medicine), my parents know how the colleges are, and they always say medicine in India is pretty much the best, atleast Top teir. And based on research that I did, and trust me I did A LOT. I agree with it. The course set by RGUHS is brilliant. Even my friend, Who wanted to do medicine first in USA, then UK now is studying for NEET that's coming.
Personally about the wanting to be the best, I think as long as you're making sure you're satisfied with your work, it should be fine.
As per my knowledge about the government, to what I've seen, it's nothing like MUN. Like I've attended a few, but politics in India sadly goes way beyond that.
At the end of the day, it's upto you, I suggest you do your own research, I'm assuming you have time yet, so read up properly, and then pick one up.
If you can, talk to people in the fields, or try interning if you can (I guess interning might be hard citing the situation :/)
I hope I helped in any way, sorry if I didn't and wasted your time.
ReplyYou did help, and thank you!
ReplyI am Indian too... and trust me, you should never say this: I want to accept being ordinary. You are extraordinary
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