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Today is my birthday. I turned 23. To some being in your 20's is a very exciting time, when you can mess around and not give a care in the world. You feel like you've got the world in your hands. At the age of 23 I am currently unemployed, uneducated, money-less, car breaking down in front of me, friend-less, extremely depressed, lonely and stressed. Two days ago I wanted to commit suicide. I am tired, frustrated and feel like a failure. Today was the most recent day I wanted to go through with committing suicide, on my birthday. I laid in my boyfriends arms crying loudly. "I was never supposed to make it to 23." "I don't want to be here anymore." "I hate it here." "I am done. I want to be done. I want to be free from everything and everyone." I could tell in his eyes that it broke his heart to see me like this. My parents find me a huge disappointment, they'll never admit it out loud but I know from the things they've said to me. I have only 2 grandmother's left. Both extremely supportive people. But have you ever had that yearning for someone just to tell you that there proud of you and what you've become? I hear it from other parents, and then I walk away. I can't help but cry. I have completely hit rock bottom. Instead of going up like they always say, I'm digging myself deeper in the ground. I don't want anyone on here to feel pity for me; all I ask is if what I said touched you in someway please don't hesitate to let me know in the comments. Thanks for listening.
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Well first happy birthday! I know what thats like a couple years ago I lost my job car broke down all at once and became money less too. I haven't had friends in the longest time and nobody where I live will help you when you're down. Still haven't completely recovered from it it's hard when the bottom drops out onyour life. I've thought of ending it multiple times but never went through with it. We're here for a reason. As long as we're alive there's still good things to be experienced. You have a boyfriend right ? so obviously he deeply cares for you you know itd hurt him to lose you. Just don't give up don't quit ok. People do care. You're not the only one that that has happened to though sometimes it feels like it. I hope you enjoy your birthday and things start looking up for you xx
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