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Hey. You're probably doing great, at least I hope you are and you've probably forgotten about me. This past year and a half since we finished high school, you've popped up in my head a coupla times and I haven't seen you since the last day of school last year. I've been suppressing our memories, telling myself that you were a fleeting crush and I should be over you by now. I miss you, to be frank, but I don't have your number, social media and I don't know where you live. Anyway, what would I tell you? I didn't accept it when you asked me to join your friend group and leave mine, but that was a bit selfish of you when I look back at it and my best friend had just transferred to another school.
I remember being intimated by you back in 2015 when I was in grade 7 and you were in 8. You seemed interesting but I didn't talk to you. Then in 2017 when you walked into the grade 9 class as a newcomer, I had this urge to sit next to you but shortly after your friend who you live in the same building with came and she became your deskmate for the rest of high school. You used to sit in front of me and occasionally turn around and crack jokes with me, you used to sit next to me when we were assigned an English essay so we could brainstorm ideas, we used to wink at each other as our inside joke, we used to talk about the most stupid things and our convos would flow seamlessly, you used to sit with me when I was on my own and ask how I was doing. You also used to hug me at random times like in the hallway then look at me and I would get butterflies and couldn't make eye contact with you. I won't forget the day I kissed your cheek and you blushed for a split second. I counted the number of times you smiled at me and died on the days that you didn't.
You gave me mixed signals, everyone teased you about the boy from when you were grade 8 but you weren't dating him. I didn't know whether you're straight or not but I didn't want to lose our little friendship chemistry thing or whatever it was. I thought I liked boys until I found myself having a crush on you. I was a bit jealous when you used to laugh with other girls and I thought maybe I'm not so special. I remember all those not-so-accidental touches and how they made my heart skip a beat. I used to catch myself staring at you many times.
But then we grew distant when we were nearing finals. Maybe it was because I still hadn't left my circle of friends, I knew they were bad 'friends' to me and you did warn me about them but I didn't know if I could trust you. What if you wanted to use me the way they did? I wasn't gonna throw them away for a 'maybe friendship' with you while you had other friends, maybe I would now but the coward young me didn't do it. So I just let you go. The last day I saw you was heartbreaking. I knew I wouldn't see you again. I didn't ask you for your number or anything, I figured you were somehow angry at me. I still have our group pic though. I look at you once in a blue moon and I think about what your answer would have been if I had asked you if you liked me as more than a friend.
Well, that's the past now and I can't do anything about it. I don't know what to call the connection we had. Maybe it was love or maybe it wasn't. I wanna thank you for having been in my life once upon a time and I hope that fate will make us meet again. I wish you all happiness, have a nice life.
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