I played hard. Srsly what Am I to you? <3

I know it sounds stupid to fall in love with a stranger that you met online right. but I can't help it... we started flirting just for fun and some of my friends there ship us then my feelings are slowing going deeper, then 1 time we talked alone. He told me he finds it fun to tease others and me that we actually flirting and he doesn't have a feeling he just neutral and just go with the flow. that sank me, am I the only who had the feeling? I never told him my feelings but I HIGH KEY show it and he thought I am just overreacting but he likes it in a fun way.. no spark he told me. He told everyone that he will not find a serious relationship in games he prefers real life, I like that too but I slipped. And now we are just teasing to each other and I am falling harder while he feel nothing. Yet he likes me but not beyond the line... I know I know I know... I feel sorry for myself maybe this is just an experience but every time I'm with him I can't hide my excitement and he finds it cute as he thinks me a young sister. LIkeee.. cmon please HAHAHAHAHAH. I'm still waiting until I'll get hurt so badly that it will lose my taste of everything. I respect him and he respects me.. I am worried about how can I get out of this situation. Lastly, he likes to flirt with everyone like teasing but when its to me he flirts hard that gave me a nosebleed. Yep i get jealous too sometimes, is he an ass? No, he doesn't know my real feelings and he thinks this is just a game, he can handle offensive response because he knows he is responsible for teasing others lol. He can guess my thoughts most of the time as he knows about me, am I predictable?? but how come he doesn't guess my feelings... I just want to express my emotions right now because I feel like floating as I'm full of butterflies in my stomach that made me fly high. I don't know what to do. maybe he is just my biggest crush .. I don't want to step the friendzone but I know its pulling me there ahhaha.. by the way we are both foreigners, 2nd language is English we are both hardly to communicate but he makes me comfortable and not awkward.. he just too good. T.T seriously what do you think of me?? what am i to u. it doesn't matter i like you anyways boy.. PS: MR and KR I hope we will not read this or found out.. we both might cringed T.T