Transformation

The day we met,

We were just kids, I was scared beaten black and blue. I was imediately drawn to you,I saw so much in those golden eyes. We'd chat for hours however my walls were built up high,I'd keep a watchful eye on myself as to not be tricked into opening my gates.

A few years pass, and once again you cross my path. Shouting, "Hello again,are you still there?" My walls had become over grown in thick vines,it had been so long since I had hidden, that being seen had become nothing but a theoretical idea on which to philosophize. So I froze, and didn't respond.

Then one day I get dragged into the light, no big deal I think, for my solitude had become so complete and even happy feeling that I was sure venturing out could not break it. There you were again, different but the same. We had both aged alot since the last time I saw you,but that spark in your golden eyes hadn't changed at all. I sat, and stared for awhile so taken off guard I couldn't even consider how out of charater this was,after all I was known for my emotional solitude by the few I kept in contact with. Never once in those years had anyone tempted me,even when they tried. We talked,and talked,and talked. It was like we were still kids,and nothing had changed. I spendt that night with you, and many many more, every holiday, every weekend, every chance we had, for almost a year. Suddenly you became the person I knew the best. I learned your habits,your schedule,the feel of your breathing next to me when you were asleep vs awake,I learned how those golden eyes shifted with your mood,I learned your laugh was the most beautiful sound,You're smile the most beautiful sight, You sitting next to me the most beatiful feeling. It's been awhile since then now. I have returned to my solitary castle, to the safety of my walls. If anyone else dares approach I'll remind myself of the calm I had years ago, so comfterble and content in my solitude. I'll remind myself of the heart ache that I now feel after venturing out of that. I must be honest though,if you come back and shout again at my gate "Hello again,are you still there?" this time I wont be able to help but let you in.