hi there

hi, its a partitially lockdown in malaysia. i'm supposed to take spm (its like leaving cert) exam this year but bcs of covid-19, we spent most of our time at home so the gov decided to postpone the spm to next year. i'm actually alrady ok w it but once again, another lockdown is here, it happen during my mock exam weeks, i just finish my first week but suddenlt its lockdown again bcs the covid-19 cases increases bcs of stupid election in one of our states. politicians are dumb and selfish. i hate that. they are being double standard, they fine the normal people who dont even have money to live their life but when the politicians did it, they didnt fine them, thats on being rude and selfish. i am stressed again, i need to go out, i want to meet my friends, to go to school. i just want spm to ends fast but it didnt. i have a long distance boyfriend who really support me but he's in a boarding sch so i cant really communicate w him but thats ok. his family do accept me, especially his mom but recently i accidentally read his conversation w his mom about his exam result, his mom said this is the result of his effort during lockdown and his mom said that the result of him calling me almost every night during lockdown. his mom said that other people sleep late bcs of playing games but he slept late bcs he was on the phone with me. and it kinda hurt me bcs my exam result is fine, even improve eventhough im with him. i know im not supposed to read their conversation but do u guys think games are better than partner? idk why but that thought stay in my brain. i am becoming who im not again, idk. i have a small business but no one really buy anything from me, i feel like stopping, should i stop? i have an anger issues that i but its really gone but now bcs of im staying at home for too long, it came back,a slo im being too sensitive on everything, what do you guys think i should do?