Intellectually competent

Something that I learned this year, that really stuck with me through the hard times.

Patience doesn't bring things, good faith doesn't bring things, being positive is a choice even without any reward.

It's not about a reward, or earning, or deserving anything in your life, because in the end.. why would you want everything in your life.

I think the fact that my life is a handful, that I have learned and adapted to enjoying what it is, what it is to breathe this air.

What it really means to live, What it means to fulfill myself, emotionally and spiritually, because I've come to the realization that life isn't physical, nothing is.

I won't get to hold onto the things that I have when I die.

I can't resist certain things.

I haven't found love yet, only for myself, my family, my dogs.

We were never meant to know judgement, guilt, shame, thievery, lust and envy or greed etc.. but I use to commit 3 sins nearly on a daily basis, lust, greed and envy..

Now it's not all what you think, I had greed for the things that I didn't even have yet, envy for the things that I may never have, and lust for someone that I know in my heart-that I couldn't have.

If all those things could be taken away, all the feelings that I don't want to feel, I would do it, but I guess I would have to be dead, and I don't want to die yet, but that really wouldn't be the worst thing right now, The world is going into the gutter and every ones minds are corrupted.

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