To my Capricorn “friend”

Dear Capricorn “Friend”,

I understand that emotions are hard for you to express at times. You would much rather deal with the hard times on your own before you share them with those around you. I get it, however there’s a fine line between processing and self sabotage. See this wouldn’t be a problem, except this is a pattern I’ve seen. You take a step back in the name of healing when in reality you’re a runner. You run from your emotions & anything that pushes you past the vulnerability that is comfortable for you. I can’t take it personal that you can’t meet me where I’m at, because you can only meet others as deeply as you met yourself, but I can hold you accountable. Rather than talking to me, you’ve taken the approach of silence in efforts to tell yourself you’re healing when all you’re doing is creating space to find an excuse. You do this with so many around you, and have even lost friends. While I’ve been here in the past to encourage you and be understanding, I wanted to let you know I’m sick of your shit. Next time you want to have space, have the courage to express yourself. I no longer will put energy into keeping a relationship you’re trying to find reasons to throw it away. I love you deeply, but I love my peace of mind more. Your inability to speak your truth is a reflection of the cowardly behavior you have yet to address. I’ve managed to be here for you without any issue but still you manage to question my character. While I’ve taken that to heart, I have to remind myself that you only associate others with what you know. I am not a reflection of your character flaws. Your silence is a not a strong response to a friend you think you’re cutting off, but yet rather a lack of response to things you need to deal with within yourself. My vulnerability has scared you & rather than voice that, you’ve left. Your response is valid, but if that’s the choice you’re making, keep it that way. I don’t need people in my life who aren’t willing to go deeper with me. Save your shallow waters for those who don’t have the endurance to swim.

Signed,

Your Capricorn Friend Who Stopped Caring.