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To begin with , this started when it was my last week in GA, and heading back home in a week. My father called me claiming he was in love with someone finally after my mother left (for good reasons). He told me "I cant tell you because they dont want you to know cause they know you will be mad at them". Which got my cogs turning on who it could be, all the clues he gave me (i wont share cause of personal things) , it only lead to my best friend at the time who is 19. This friend of mine is a transgender person who is ftm. He was over there while i was in GA and claimed to have their roof of their own house to cave in. Now they're living here. My Older sister and I got back from GA, to talk to our disgusting father (48) , we talked to him that night and not once he listen to us and said he doesn't care. He told me , im overreacting. I know i wasn't since my father has been keeping things from me since my ex friend came to live here. I myself have depression and anxiety, my depression has gotten worse since ive been in the situation. I want to end it so bad but i wont cause i have a few people who care about me. The thing that stuck with me was my own father telling me "I wouldn't care if a 48 year old man came on to you" , and mind you this , im 18. Im not an adult , im a baby adult who's trying to experience the world with high hopes, not rape. that struck me hard and made me cry. My mother who i told everything to ,, was furious and wanted me out of the house so i dont have to deal with this. But sadly she cant do anything as she is living with our Aunt while working a job. My aunt doesnt have room for me. My older sister (we have different mums) 's mum is trying to convince her husband to move me in with her cause she knows im unstable in the house. My father has become a toxic person for me but i have to deal with it until i move out. Im working on getting a job or starting college to help me out of this situation. im not okie here, not once in a million years have i thought ill be here in this spot. My father doesn't care about my feelings after explaining i wanted to die, yet he doesnt care and called me selfish for sharing my feelings. i wish for one thing and its not gonna happen. this has been bothering me since ive been back from GA and Christmas is getting very close. This year already sucks so much. Trying my damn hardest to get myself out of here, ive even started selling my dresses from my homecoming years in high school to help me get started somewhere. I guess the only thing keeping me sane is my pet cat Elliot, he's a Russian blue mix, im lucky to have him. Wish me luck or pray for me since life just hates me right now. (this is only a brief shortness of everything there are many details but typing this out help me get tired and hopefully i can get some sleep tonight . And yes my ex best friend and my father are dating and still going on rn , i hate it so much here. My home is no longer the home i once knew. )
from , K
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At least you can get out of there. This is such a shame. Try to look at this situation in a bit of a positive way instead of being so down about it. Things in life change, sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse. This seems to be for the better for your dad, but for the worse for you and the main thing is to not get your spirits down. Be as happy as you can and have a lovely Christmas.
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