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The note my daughter wrote when she was alive
4 months ago · · Stress, · Explicit
If someone is reading this well your either snooping or something has happened and I'm not around anymore. First I just want to say I'm sorry for always being in a bad mood, and well everything else. I do not know what happened to me, but I do not want you to hang on to regret or hang on to the past. I don't want y'all to turn up like mom has paranoid, and regretful. Don't let whatever happened make you feel like your responsable. You can only control so many things, so don't worry about the things that you can't change. I've loved my life, the pain, the smiles, and the discovery. I past makes you into who you are and well I wouldn't change a thing because I'm a smart, wise, and independent women. I may have not said it enough but I loved my life, and I thanked everyone for all of the experiments, the feelings. I may be 15, and dead know... But I knew a lot for my age. I was a very smart women but and I wanted big things and I worked for what I got. I may have been a little girl once but but I'm not anymore. Some people may believe I am an atheist, kid bitch. But me not worshipping a god, or gods freed my soul. I was trapped for so many years, and my pain set me free it gave me the motivation to break my soul, and mind apart so that I can rebuild from the ground up. I buried my heart for so many years, I stayed in their for 2 years until I had nothing but time and nobody but myself. I was trying to find missing pieces when I noticed that I had to make the missing pieces. I was a white puzzle I had no color. I had to paint what I wanted, what I liked. Some people may believe I was depressed, lost, or angry. I was lost and angry, I was not sad. I had lost who I was, and had to make a new me. I hated the darkness until I learned to plant flowers within the dark. I planted my colorful world, I painted my new self. And I loved every single second of the time I had.
My daughter died at 5:48pm January 1st.