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I realized some changes need to be done. I started smoking pot when I was 15 more or less and it has always been more of an occasional thing, I never bought it myself and never actually brought it home, I smoked when there was a party or a celebration, or when my friends had some. I’ve always been around it though, I now realize. My older brother smokes, I have lots of cousins and all of them smoke too. I live in the same building as a couple of them and since the first days of the first lockdown, I started hanging out with of them more than usually and since then I started smoking almost everyday. Never been a real problem for me, maybe I feel bad because he offers it to me and I never paid, but nothing more. Then yesterday I got a text from my brothers girlfriend telling me she left their home and that he’s smoking always more and she doesn’t know what to do because he’s just very depressed and this whole smoking thing is making everything worse. I’m very worried about him and I can’t really do anything about it because he lives abroad and I can’t go to him now. And then I realized that I need to stop. I’m smoking for the wrong reasons, I do it because I don’t want to think, I want to escape my reality and live in the world I’m building up. I don’t want to hurt the people I love, I don’t want my happiness to depend on it and I don’t want to be addicted. I know how can it jeopardize my ability to build up a family, to live an happier life than the one my parents made me live, I don’t want my brother to feel so worried and helpless as I’m feeling for him right now. It’ll be hard I guess, because I’ll have every night my cousin smoking in front of me, but I’ll try very hard and I already found some healthy and legal alternatives that can help me relax and go to bed. It’ll get better, right?
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It will definitely get better. You have already taken the first step to improve your life and that is realization. Be patient. It will be great if you will have someone around you to support you. Because when you will get the urge to want to do it you will have someone to bring you back to the reality.
But don't worry if you really want to get better you will. And maybe your brother will get influenced by you and try to leave it to. You might just not save your life but your brother's too.
And remember your parents are definitely trying their best to give you a wonderful life without expecting much. So you can make them happy by just being healthy which most of the parents wish for.
Stay safe and don't give up on yourself. Because you do have the power to change your life for the best.
Take Care :)
ReplyIf you make it get better.
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