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As the title suggests, this is going to about my girlfriend. Well she is my ex-girlfriend now but I still have feelings for her. I have known her for over 7 years now and our relationship has been ON and OFF from 5 years. Now she is getting married to someone else. But still she contacts me and talks about sexual stuffs which I think she should not be doing.
I don't know what to tell. We both liked her in the beginning, but later on she started to avoid me in from of her best friend, and that guy hated me for some reason. She used to avoid talking to me when he was near and I was offended. I felt really bad and I have told her several times to not to do that. But she continued to do that and after a few months I stopped talking to her and told her that I don't like her anymore. She never believed that. I told her forcefully about this and then she agreed. But we still used to fool around and get physical. We used to hangout to fool around quiet a lot and she got pregnant once without our knowledge. I was not there to support her during this period due to my family problem which she was angry but I was in a helpless situation. She wanted to abort and she did. Even after that we used to fool around but we were cautious. Then I planned to go abroad to do my higher studies. I told he not to contact me once I leave the country and she agreed. She told me that she was seeing someone else and I was totally fine as I wanted to cut all the contact with her. She forced me to have sex once again and as expected she got pregnant again. She aborted the baby again. And I left the country. I never expected this but I started to feel lonely once I left the country and one day she messaged me. I replied and we started to talk again. She asked me if I was ready to marry her and I agreed but later she told me that she was deeply in love with the other guy and she was confused as to whom to select. I was in a cliffhanger but whenever she used to meet the other guy, she used to message me or call me and tell me everything she did with him. All the fantasies I wanted, she did it with him and she used to tell me each and everything. I was really getting frustrated and getting angry and sometimes I used to lose it and scold her. But when I visited back, she wanted to meet me and wanted to sleep with me, and we did.
But when I asked her if she anted to marry me she told that she has only physical attraction only and she is not connected mentally or emotionally with me. I am in a great struggle in my life because of the covid situation. I am unable to find a job, I am alone, broke and literally on the brink of begging for food. Still she messages me to tell all the fantasies and stuffs she is enjoying and never care if it hurts me or not. I want to block her but I don't want to. I want a solution as it is driving me crazy. I am in that phase of life where everything is going as bad as I can imagine. All the nightmares what I imagined are coming true and in between these she messages me telling that she had sex with her boyfriend and did kinky stuffs with him. I am frustrated in every way possible. Not only with her but also with myself. I am so frustrated mentally, emotionally, physically and sexually also. I don't understand what to do.When I am at peace with myself, immediately my phone rings with her name and she messages me telling so many things which are related to sex. Why am I unable to move on from her? Is there a problem in myself? I am so frustrated that I want to end my life.
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I feel bad that you are in a horrible situation right now, and what I am seeing is that your ex is making everything worse for you. Your ex seems like she hasn't been able to be very decisive in life, and marrying her would probably end badly because I am seeing a lot of immaturity based off what you have written. Also, if your ex was never emotionally attached to you like she said, why is she still sending you messages? Why did she do all those things with you and want to get married? It's just really weird and seems very off. It's actually super inconsiderate of her to be sending those messages to you. She definitely has some reason for sending them, and she may be trying to manipulate how you're feeling. And I don't know her, so please take my words with a grain of salt, but it seems like that. Honestly, if you don't want to block her right away, tell her to stop sending you messages. If she doesn't stop, block her please. I mean it's your choice, but she is acting horribly to you and making you feel horrible. I think it's best to cut those toxic people out of life before they hurt you more.
ReplyI don't know what is the reason behind her sending those messages. I want to know that but trust me, when i dig deeper into it, I get more hurt and this is through experience I am telling. And I do feel that she is trying to manipulate my feelings but I don't understand why.
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