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2 months ago · · Love,
People say heartbreaks are absolute worst but falling out of love can be excruciatingly painful too. I loved a girl since 7th grade, we finally got into a relationship after 5 years of my one-sided love, she cheated on me, I was broken and remains so.
It's been 3 years now since my break up and I have lost most of my emotions for her. I will always have a soft corner for her, but I don't think about her anymore. Only when the tunes actually get to the inner depths, do I feel the pain of that unrequited love, but I am fine most of the time.
So coming back to falling out of love, which I guess is my case, I find myself a lot more lonely than I ever was. I never had much friends, a little shy kid, the silent one you may call. I had her superficial being as my imaginary friend whom I could talk to, share my thoughts, love her and just vent my bottled up emotions. Ever since she is gone, I do not have anyone to vent my emotions. The eerie loneliness overwhelms me so much that I don't know what to do.
I can't imagine her the same way as I did earlier. I don't have anyone to talk to about my emotions anymore. It feels very lonely, just like an abandoned boat in the middle of the sea, trying to stay afloat to survive. Hope someday, someone will come who will teach me to love again.