I have an irrational fear

This is going to sound incredibly silly, but I have an irrational fear of brides. Or at least, the traditional white wedding dress. Seeing one of those dresses or even seeing someone dressed in one makes me want to bury my face in my hands.

I know where it comes from, too. I was watching YouTube videos of Broadway singers. There were these compilations of people singing the same song to figure out who sang it the best. Well, I put on one of those videos. I didn’t suspect anything even though I could clearly see the cover of the video. It was a compilation of people talking way too fast while dressed as brides. It was funny for a bit, until something happened. You know YouTube, nothing is ever as it seems. It totally caught me off guard. My least favourite actress (understatement— I h a t e this lady) showed up and started doing it. She wasn’t even that good. But I didn’t care whether she was good or not. I screamed my head off, then frantically clicked the remote to turn it off. Then I started cussing at the TV. Telling her, “get out! Get out!”

She ruined my relaxation by showing her face. Now I can’t look at a bride without thinking about her, and the old feelings of fear and anger bubble up. I know not all brides are this lady but it’s hard for me not to think about her when I see them. Blonde brides especially scare me.

How do I get over this?????